Pain, Blood and a Vampires love bk3 The Silent Heart

chapter four

Armand's pov 

I can see in my minds eye Storm has somehow been pulled back to the time when I had my power and lost control she is only seeing the end when it nearly killed me. 

I hope she never see me in the full height of my blood lust, I was evil and a real monster how she is seeing this I dont know.

I just hope she doesnt see me as the evil monster I was.

She has turned this monster into a Father and Husband I dont deserve her but she has full filled my life and made me a better vampire.

" Fangs stop thinking rubbish I love you ". I smile as I hear the women I love more than eternty in my mind.

" I love you too Blood ". I reply to her in her mind. 

A vampire only loves once in his/her exsistents I have found mine.

Storm's pov 

That was a strange vision to have but I can see why fangs is worried about his power now he could have easly died then I would never have found my love.

He has changed my life for the better I never thought I could be happy and feel love like he has given me. 

As I sit and look out the window I see all our children outside with there loves and think to myself how lucky I have been.

I was a victim of my father's abuise for a short time my mother suffered longer than me but I feel I suffered too.

I saw him kill the man I love, yes I know I got him back but at the time it was gone from me I never thought I would recover from the lost of the one I love. 

To watch him die in my arms was the worse feeling in the world it was as though my heart had been ripped from my body and the world had come to a full stop. 

I dont like to think about this very often as it still hurts when I think of that night.

I suppose seeing fangs like that in my vision I should tell you what it was really like for me those few days when I thought fangs was dead. 

Deep breathe here goes...

The night he died Lou took me to his room and laid me on his bed and I curled up in a ball and cried. 

As I cried I held his pillow to me I could smell that special scent of his, as my sob easied to a dull sob I heard foot steps coming up the stairs. 

As I got up of the bed and walked well wobbled to the door I open the alittle to see Darren carrying fangs body to spare room. 

I watched and waited for him to leave the room and go down stairs, I then walked to the room and walked inside. 

I went to his lifeless body and cried and begged him to come back to me and not leave me alone. 

I could hear foot steps coming upstairs so I went back to the bedroom and pretend to be asleep hoping if anyone came in they would leave me alone to grieve.

I didnt want to live without him in my life, I decide the best way to cope with his loss was to cut of pretend in my mind he wasnt dead but asleep. 

It got harder Darren kept trying to get me to eat and Lou kept talking to me.

In the end I decided to pretend that I died with him, I cut alot but I was careful to hide it so no one would know that I was cuting and trying to end my pain. 

Nothing could end the pain of his loss, I felt empty and alone even with Lou and Darren there I was alone he was gone.

Nothing could end the ache I felt in my heart, I learned to love and trust only for that to be taken from me by the man I called father. 

When he returned to me I thought my mind had finally crack I saw him die I held him in my arms as he died but yet here he was sat in front of me holding my hands.

I was happy but scared at the same time I was scare to believe he was real but yet he was and I'm glad he came back to me.

Armand's pov 

I can see what Storm is thinking I never knew all this she always kept that time bottled up so tight as if she fear it would all change if she thought it.

I give our son to the nanny and go to our room to find Storm.

" Hello blood ". 

She looks at me.

" Hi fangs ". 

" why didnt you tell me you came into the room the night I died ".

She sigh's..

" Fangs it was so hard for me, I wanted you back my own father killed you ". 

" What he did doesnt matter anymore blood, it was year's ago and Im partly to blame for not telling you I was part fire phoenix ". 

" Fangs his anger at me cause you to lose your life ". 

" Were not going to fight about this blood your father said he was sorry before he died now let it go we all make mistakes ". 

" How can you forgive him so easily after he stabbed you in the heart you still have the scar ". 

I look down at my now bear chest as I removed my shirt as our beautiful son was sick on me. 

" I look at it as a scar of love I died to save the women I loved ". 

She sighs and looks back at the window I walk over to the window and see her watching our children in the garden all mated and paired apart from our new human child. 

I suddenly feel something on my chest I look down to see Storm running a finger across the scar where my heart is.

" Blood its in the past let it go we have a great family and I have a beautiful wife I get to keep for all eternity ".

" I just cant seem to forget it fangs, he killed my mother and then you to hurt me what did I do wrong to him ". 

" My love you did nothing to him the only thing wrong with him was he was drank and a mean one at that ". 

I see a tear come to her eye. 

" Fangs I miss Dad so much ". 

I knew this would come soon the death of my father would hit her soon we still have the memorial to to go to so everyone can pay there last respects to the fallen king. 

I hug her close.

" I know blood I miss him too ". 

As I hold her I shed a tear for my father.