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♡ One ♡

It was probably about three in the morning and I still was not asleep but my pillow was soaked. I had been crying so much lately because things have been such a bloody mess. It was so unreal to me how certain feelings can just tear you apart. I let out a sigh, rubbing my already irratated eyes but I could not help but not to. Jinxx, apart from everyone I knew he was probably the only one who actually understood me. He knew every single problem I was going through and always helped me and I did the same for him. He was the greatest friend ever. Soon or later, I had passed out.

I had suddenly had woken up from hearing yelling and screaming and got up from my bunk, pulling on sweats and walked to the front of the bus. Then I saw the reason there was screaming going on, Andy's girlfriend. Oh this bitch could start shit all day of the week if she wanted and Andy would still let her come back to him. So I tuned my ass back around but before I could, "Morning Ash." Of course Jake had to open to his mouth, "morning." My voice was cracking, I could tell instantly probably because of all the crying I was doing last night.

Jinxx had finally came out of the back, and he had a grin on his face as usual. God, this guy was a life savor. I leaned over whispering in his ear, "help me." He chuckled and shook his head, I groaned and went back to the bunk area. "Ashley!" I heard Jake yell, "go fuck yourself, I'm going back to bed!" I yelled back and crawled back into my bunk. I didn't feel like dealing with everybody, just fuck that at the moment. Just f-u-c-k that.

- Hour or so later -

Jinxx had came to the back and had woken me up, telling me to get my ass up and go out with him. I did as he said to like always. I walked to the bathroom and walked in, closing the door. I started to strip down and turned on the warm water. I rubbed my eyes looking into the mirror, I was so pale and looked very skinny. Shaking my head, and got myself into the shower. Letting the warm water run over my body, feeling much better but soon I had to get out. I had gotten out, getting dried off and putting clean clothes on..

I had been waiting outside of the bus for Jinxx, he was talking to the bus about our where about if anything happened and the boys could not reach us. I leaned back on the bus closing my eyes, sighing. "you always want the one you can't have cause love isn't always far,' singing out softly as turning to see Jinxx with a amazed look. "What?" I asked clueless, "nothing bud, let's go." Jinxx knew something but he was not gonna tell me, like always.

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