Chapter two: Time to make a new beggining
[Music: Thousand years]
Heart, beats fast, Colors and Promises.
How to be brave, how can i love? When i'm afraid to fall.
But watching you stand alone.
Thousand years, by Christina Perry, was blasting in my room here in our hide-out.
Good thing it's sound-proof here.
I stare at my window, watching rain fall from the sky.
Then, memories from the past came into my mind.
"Kris! Tao! Luhan! Oppa! Look, I made bracelets for all of us."
I remember that, i wonder if they still have it with them.
"You can do it! Go my baby sis!"
I was doing sports that time, it was our wushu championship game. But my opponent isn't tao.
"Promise me one thing guys, that you will never leave my side, and be there for me always."
"Sure baby sis, we love you very much."
Our promise, has it been broken? Or kept? I didn't know.
They left me without a reason, jong-in or my brother was sent to korea, i was left alone in China.
We moved here, I mean. I moved here, my parents took care of everything. I became lonely, until I heard that my gang mates are here.
I was in china, because my uncle died. I blamed them, and i was wrong. Very very wrong.
The truth is, I barely see my brother every morning. But now that school is starting, i wanna be close to him, them. Again, and start over.
I stood up and took all of my photo album, i sat down the floor.
"My Oppadeuls ♡"
Oppadeuls mean, 'my older brothers' even though, kai is my only brother.
I look at the pictures, how I miss those days. That's why I became a gangster.
But I won't tell my past, not yet. I didn't even told my gang, my family here in korea.
I hated myslef that time. To the point i could kill.
Why didn't I believe them? I was so stupid.
If only I could turn back time and erase it, i would be glad, but i can't. And i regret that.
I had a chance, but blew it away. Pride and anger took over me, that only time, when they we're still with me.
I stop at a picture, and I held it close to my heart.
Kris was wearing his big smile, and saluted like a soldier, tao, luhan and jong-in too. While I was at the side, wearing my military dress, smiling.
That was our first costume party, we decided to go together.
I stop and fixed the photo albums.
Why didn't i say sorry? When i had the chance! Why didn't i say i love them? When the time came and they left me alone.
*sigh* I believe in Regrets are always in the end.
I didn't know until i felt it. I'm sorry guys, i still love all of you.
