circles || l.t

four

*Allison's POV*

The drive to Liam's condo wasn't long. I've been before so I knew what to expect. After being in the car with the 5 most immature boys I think i've ever met for twenty minutes, we hopped out of the car. I got my bag and started to walk towards the door. Harry took my bag from me while Louis linked arms with me. I smiled at both of them and skipped to the door with Louis. When we got to the door I opened it and walked into the house i've missed for two years. Niall ran to the kitchen while the other guys just stepped into the house.

"We should go swimming!" Louis said with the brightest smile on his face. It was so cute. Whoa, slow down Allison. I smiled back at him and the guys all agreed to go swimming.

I went up to my room in the house, yes I have my own room. This was like my second house. I unpacked everything and took out my strapless, light blue bathing suit. I put my hair in a bun and quickly changed into the swimsuit. I grabbed my ray bans and put them on my head. I walked out of the room and over to the kitchen. I looked through the fridge and pulled out the carton of orange juice. I turned around and saw Harry with wide eyes, that were scanning over my body. 

"You're so skinny." He said surprised. I nodded and looked at the ground. Yes I was skinny, but it's not a good thing. It's because I used to be anorexic. And i'm not fully recovered. I fiddle with my thumbs while Harry just walked towards me. "I know you're not naturally this bony. So if you ever want to tell me about it, i'm here. But i'm not going to push you." He said and I nodded.

"Thank you." I said and hugged him. One single tear slid down my cheek. "Shit." I whispered, more to myself than to Harry, and wiped it quickly.

"Getting friendly, are we?" I turned and saw Zayn smirking at us. I blushed but quickly covered it up with a laugh. 

The other boys walked out and stared at me, just like Harry had. Liam looked at me with mixed emotions. I knew one of them was sympathy because he was the only one out of the five that knew the whole story. Louis and Niall's eyes found their way to my boobs. 

"Yeah enough of the boob staring. I got enough of that in high school. Let's go." I said and they all laughed. I really did get a bunch of people tell me how big my boobs were. As if I didn't know. All the guys ran and jumped in. I laughed at all of them and sat on one of the chairs. 

As I watched the boys, laughing and splashing water everywhere, it hit me. I'm spending time with my best friend again. The boy I haven't seen in two years, would be spending the rest of the summer with me. It was amazing how my life changed over night. I found myself staring at Louis. I don't know what it was about him, but there was something that made me interested about him. I'm not going to lie, he was a really attractive person. He caught my stare and smiled at me. I smiled back and he was splashed by Harry, which caused him to break our eye contact. I laughed to myself before I was snapped out of my trance.

"Ally are you okay?" I turned and saw Liam looking at me with eyes full of concern.

"Yeah i'm fine. Why wouldn't I be?" I asked and he shrugged and sat next to me. 

"You looked like you were thinking about something. I couldn't tell if it was a good thing, or a bad thing." I stayed silent and looked at the ground. "Ally talk to me." He begged. "What were you thinking about?"

"Everything." I whispered.

"Like what?" 

"Everything Li. In the past three years, i've suffered from an eating disorder, that ended shortly after you left, but I still don't eat. Liam I can't remember the last time I ate an actual meal. Some days I go without eating at all. Some days I eat one chip. Some days I eat a piece of bread. It's so hard to eat an actual meal. I refuse to eat, even if i'm hungry. I cook people food because they ask me too but never eat any of it. Liam I forgot what my food tastes like. My best friend was gone for two years. I went to one of your concerts one time. But there was no way to make contact with you. I cry every time I read the letter you gave me. Every time. I don't know Liam. I have friends but no matter where I am, who i'm with, I always feel like i'm alone. People have tried to fix me, but nobody's succeeded." I said as tears rolled down my cheeks. I quickly wiped them and Liam just hugged me. We stood there, on the porch, hugging as I quietly sobbed into his chest.  I stopped and pulled away, wiping all the tears. "I'm done." I said and smiled.