My Son Now Has My Heart

12 Days Later

Odell POV
I watched Zendaya move around her sleep. Andrew was in my lap. Sleep. We've been I the hospital for 12 days. Well, Zendaya been in the hospital for 12 days. I had to do stuff. Andrew was staying with me. She was in a coma for a week. But now, she isn't. They want to keep her in the hospital for observation. Because she might be pregnant and if she was she wasn't awake to say if she wanted an abortion or not. They also want her here so she won't do anything destructivel to her self.
Chris Brown came into the room. He looked at me then at Zendaya.
"What happened?" He asked with tears in his eyes.
"Someone, I don't know what the dudes name is.. He raped her."
Chris looked away.
"How could this happen again?" He mumbled. I gulped and tried to hold back my tears.
"I should've stayed with her." I said. He turned to look at me. Then shook his head. "Nah. Nah. Its not your fault. I shouldn't have left that night. If I didn't leave, she wouldn't have been at that party." He said sighing.
"No. I took her to the party. Its my fault."
"No. But whatever. Lets not play the blame game. Is she at least alright?" He asked. I nodded.
"For the most part. They found the semen and they are testing it to see who did it."
"Did you see the man?"
"Yeah. He walked right past me when I went in the bathroom. He was the only one who was in there besides Zendaya."
Chris nodded and sat next to the bed. Zendaya started moving around. Chris grabbed one of her hands. Her eyes flickered open. She looked at me then at Chris.
"Hey." She said hoarsely.
"How you feel?"
"Painful." She winced. Then turned at me. "Chris, can you take Drew so I can talk to Odell privately?" She asked him turning back to face him. He nodded and kissed her forehead and walked over to me and grabbed Andrew and left. I stared at her.
"I'm sor-"
"Why'd you leave?"
"I wanted something to drink? If I -"
"You left me alone. I only feel safe with 3 people no 4 and you are one of them." She said. I gulped and wiped my eyes. I wasn't crying but I felt they were heavy.
"Im sorry. If I knew you didn't feel safe, I would've stayed. But I thought you were in good hands. You were with my brother."
"So, I didn't know him personally." She said. "Odell, this is the second time something like this happened. And the people who I trust the most weren't there. From the beginning."
"Zendaya. I'm sorry."
I inhaled some air and exhaled. "I hate not feeling safe. Being safe." She whispered. "Ronnie told me that nothing like that would ever happen again. Yet it d-" she stopped. She started crying. I looked at her. Her hair was up in a bun courtesy of me.
I sat on the edge of her bed. Then pulled her into my shoulder. "Im sorry."
"Odell, I can't be like this anymore. I just wish sometimes that I... That I would've died that day." She said. I looked at her and stopped rubbing her back taking I what she just said.
"What day?" I asked. Making her look at me. Her eyes were red.
"The day he tried to kill me." She said. I clenched my jaw.
"Who?" I asked as a tear slid down my cheek.
"The same nigga that raped me. August."

Zendaya POV
Flashback (BTW, this wasn't in the last book)
August played with my phone. "Give me my phone back." I whined.
He smirked. "No." He threw it at the ground. I heard it smash. I covered my mouth. I looked at August.
"I can't believe your dumbass just did that." I said pushing him. I keep pushing him and at point, my hand connected with his face.
He put his hand on the cheek I just smacked. I saw anger flash in his eyes. I started to get scared. But I wasn't going to say sorry. I mean. He did just break my phone.
He clenched his fists. "I know you just did not smack me."
"Well, I did. Tough cookies." I said. He stared at me for a minute. Then his fist connected to my stomach causing me to double over. I groaned.
"Fucking bitch!" He spat. Then he lifted me up to look at him. "Try that shit again. I dare ya stupid ass to." He said. I felt something metal rest against the back of my neck. I started to get scared.
"I'm sorry." I muttered. We sat in the same position for what seemed like hours but, he let me go.
"I should've killed ya ass."
Flashback over

I told Odell. He sat there and listened. I saw his jaw clench a couple of times. Then he shook hisnhead and kissed his forehead.
"Now, I know Ronnie can't do what he promised. But I will keep up his promise for him. In his memory. Nobody should ever have to be put through that. Ever. That's why I paid strippers to put their clothes back on." He said. I laughed. He smiled.
"I can't deal with you." I said.
"Its true. I don't want people to take advantage of them."
I shook my head and then Andrew ran in. "Mommy. Are we having a baby?" He asked walking up to the bed.
"I don't know baby. Where'd you get that from?" Then Chris walked in.
"Uncle Chris said that we were in here to figure out if we were having a baby." Chris shrugged.
"On the sign on the door it said maternity. Little boy is smart." He said. I looked at Odell.
"What?" Then a doctor came in.
"Uh, Ms. Coleman, you're pregnant." My whole heart dropped.
"What?"
"I'll let you soak this in."
"I want an abortion." I said.
"No. We'll talk this out." Odell and Chris said. I looked at them and cried. I didn't want this baby.