Locker Room Love

part 1

((this might be the only part, beware if you want a happy ending))

Locker Room Love

Sebastian sat nervously on the bench as he waited for the first try-out. He had no idea how he would make the football team. He is only trying out to impress his father, who had not taken Sebastian's coming out well. With the boys lanky figure and small frame Sebastian's father thought his son couldn't get any less manly. Sebastian wanted nothing more than approval from his father, hence trying out for the football team. The same football team his brother was captain of years ago. There was only one thing that no one saw coming, a locker room love.

SEBASTIAN

I hated football, I hated the gear even more. If I didn't already seem small already the gear made me look three times smaller. I knew I had no chance of making the team, but the look on my dads face when I said I was trying out was too proud. I couldn't give up now.

"Ever played before?" a boy asks as he sits next to me

"Um, n-no I haven-en't".

"Thats okay, as long as you can catch" he laughs "I'm Evan Pealy"

"I-I'm Seb-Seb" I huff in annoyance I hated that my stutter "Sebastian Consesnt"

"Your older brother was captain a couple years ago, right?"

"Y-yeah".

Our chat was cut short by tryouts starting. Though I was kind of glad, conversations about my brother were never ones I wanted to be in. They usually involved comparing him and I. He always won.

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After try-outs my body ached. My lack of muscle and body weight didn't help the pain in my lungs. I waited until all the boys were gone before getting in the shower. Embarrassed of my skinny body. The hot water hits my sore back and arms, I feel myself relax. I find myself thinking back to try-outs. I didn't do terrible, but there was no way I was making the team or even to the second try-out. I can almost here the disappointment in my fathers voice now.

"Dexter made it on the team, Dex was captain for two years" I hear my father say in my mind. "I mean you could've tried harder, football is in your blood" it all sounds to familiar.

I feel hot tears rush down my face. Dexter was always better. Built like a man, long time girlfriend, captain of the football team, perfect grades. Dex is everything to our father. I let loud sobs escape, each one causing my body to shake. I was never good enough, I never will be. If I did good on a test, than Dex had aced it when he was my age, I'll never have a girlfriend and Dex was a ladies man before he could talk. More sobs escape as I hear footsteps. I panic and rinse tears off my face.

"Someone there?" I hear a voice call

"Y-yeah" I say back, I hear the footsteps get closer.

"Oh, Sebastian, right?" Hunter— the football captain —asks.

"Y-y-yeah" I turn to see him look straight at me. I turn away quickly, embarrassed. No one needed to see my body.

"Why are you showering so late?" he questions

"To-too many people" I reply, for some reason that seemed less embarrassing than being ashamed of my body.

"I get that, you played well today" he continues. I grab my soap to try an distract myself from the fact that Hunter is starring at my naked body.

"Thank y-you" I mentally slap myself for stuttering.

"Your brother should be proud" tears threaten to fall, I know Dex would not be proud.