Matthew and I are at the prom having a good time, the prom's about to end. When it ended, we headed back to the car. We got in the back seat and just started to make out. He kept his hands on my hips, occasionally moving up to my waist, or down my legs. He slipped his hands under my dress, and the kissing intensed. Within a couple of minutes we were doing it in the back seat. It's a good thing he has tinted windows. About an half hour later, we got out of the back seat and he started to take me home.
When I got home, before I got out of the car, we kissed. I went inside and headed straight to bed.
I thought about what had happened tonight. I thought about everything.
3 days later
I woke up this morning to a sudden urge to throw up. I ran to the bathroom and threw up in the toilet.
I continued to throw up for about an half hour. By the time I was done, Felix knocked on my door, asking if I was ok. When he left I decided to make breakfast. For some odd reason, I ate more than I was used to. When I was done eating, my dad walked in. "Juliet, I heard that you weren't feeling very good this morning." He said. "I don't know what it is, I don't feel like myself today." I told him. "How about you try to get your mind off of it, by going shopping with Jane." He recommended. "ok, where's Jane?" I asked. "In her room" He answered leaving my room, to give me some privacy to get dressed.
I went into my closet to get something to wear.
I found a cream colored long sleeve shirt (http://www.polyvore.com/cream_tassel_kaftan_top/thing?id=35762101) , and some jeans. When I took off my pajama shirt, I realized that I was a little fatter than usual,and that my curves are disappearing. I'm starting to get suspicious, and a little worried that something's wrong with me. After I was done getting dressed, I go onto my laptop, and google search my symptoms, hoping something will tell me what's wrong with me or if I'm going insane.
I click on the first link that was in my list of results, I read the page and it didn't help too much.I opened a new document on my computer and typed out the possibilities and the site I found them on.
On every single page that the links lead me to said something about 'Pregnancy'. I thought about it and decided to google it.
The first result link was a chart of symptoms. The thing that scared me is that it had the same list of symptoms I was having.
I decided to stop researching, and to give it a rest, and to just think about it. I walked down to Jane's room, and knocked on the door. "Come in" I heard Jane call. I walked in and asked,"Hey Jane, do you wanna go shopping?" "Sure." She said. "What brought this up?" she asked as we left her room. "Nothing really, it's just I haven't been feeling like myself today, and I just wanted to get it off of my mind for a while."I answered. "That's what your dad said. He said that he told you to go shopping, to get you mind off of it, and he told me that you're going to go shopping, and that you may stop by and ask me to go with you." She said back.
The whole time we were shopping, I had a bunch of questions running through my head, like 'Is it possible? could I be pregnant?', 'Could it be because of that night with Matthew?' , 'Am I ready to take care of a child? I don't have the guts to get rid of it.'
On the way home I asked Jane if I could stop at the dollar store, because I had to go to the bathroom.
When we got to the dollar store,I told Jane that I was going in alone. I grabbed my purse and went in, I made sure I had enough money to buy a couple of pregnancy tests. I got in line at the register with my money ready. When I was at the register I asked, "Can I get 5 pregnancy tests?" "Sure, that would be, 5.12" She said back getting the tests, off the wall she had next to her. I handed her the money and asked if there was a bathroom here. She handed me the tests and gives me directions to it. I went in and got into a stall, and got out the tests, I took, 3 out of the 5 that I had. I waited for a minute, and the tests finally came out. They were all positive. I stuffed the tests I all ready had taken,and the ones I haven't yet in my purse, and threw out the bag. I hurried out of the store and back into the car. "What took you so long?" Jane asked. "I had to wait for a while to get directions to the bathroom." I answered.
On the way back home Questions bounced around in my head. When I was home, I hid my pregnancy tests in one of the bathroom drawers.
I heard a knock on my door, and I closed the document I had put the results on, and got onto a different site. I knew that if one of my dad's guards, or one of my uncles had found out that I might be pregnant, my dad would find out with out me telling him, and he'd be a little mad that I didn't tell him right away. "Come in." I said once my computer was done loading, and the document wasn't showing. I looked at the door to see who it was at my door. It was Felix. "Hey, how was the shopping trip?" He asked.
"Good. But it didn't help get my mind off of this morning." I answered. "Yeah, I know." He said back "How did you know?" I asked. "Well, when you got home, you seemed a little worried still, and it looked like you didn't get it off your mind, and I asked Jane, If you were like that during the shopping trip, and she said that you were, but that you seemed worse on the way home." He answered. "Juliet what's wrong? And don't try to say that there's nothing wrong because I can see that something's bugging you." He asked trying to get me to tell him.I was trying to figure out if I should tell him or not. "I don't know if I can tell you, because if I tell you, the rest of my dad's guard,or one of my uncles, or maybe both, will find out, then my dad ends up finding out, by one of the guards, or from my uncles, then he gets a little mad at me because I didn't tell him." I said, starting to cry. Felix, sat down on my bed, and hugged me, trying to comfort me. "Juliet, you know you can tell me anything, You're my little sister. And I wouldn't tell anyone what you told me, not one of the guards, or your uncles, or even your dad. That's your job to tell them.Juliet it hurts me knowing that something's wrong with my little sister, and she won't tell me or anyone." He said. I decided to trust him with the news, that he won't tell anyone."Felix, I might be pregnant." I said softly, so that those who are passing by can't hear. "What? how did you find out? When and how did it happen? Who did it happen with, and who's the father?" He asked, copying my soft voice, he knew I didn't want anyone to know. "I might be pregnant." I repeated then taking a deep breath before I continued. "I found out today. I looked up my symptoms, on google to see if I could get some answers, then in every result page, it said something about 'pregnancy', and when I went shopping with Jane questions ran through my head. Then on the way home, I asked Jane if we could stop at the dollar store, so I could go to the bathroom. When we got to the store, I went in with my purse, and brought pregnancy tests, and went into the bathroom there, and took 3 out of the 5 pregnancy tests and they came out positive." I took another deep breath, then I continued. "It happened after the prom ended, we went into the back set and started to make out, he kept his hands on my hips, occasionally moving up to my waist, or down my legs for a while, then he slipped his hands under my dress, and the kissing intensed. Within a couple of minutes we were doing it in the back seat. It happened with Matthew, and he's the father." I said. still crying. He pulled me into a hug. "I wish I'd never done it. It was a terrible mistake." I said. He started to dry my tears, then he said, "Juliet, its ok, everyone makes mistakes, and no matter what, I'm going to help you through it, and I'm gonna be there, when ever you need me to get through it."
He didn't let go, and I soon, fell asleep.
