Unexpected Love

The Fear Of Not Knowing

Frank came into my room every night. My parents thought I was crazy, saying "alright, I'm off to bed" at like 8:00 at night, and wouldn't get out of bed the next morning till like 11:30.

Truth was I'd go to my room and cuddle/kiss/talk/....other stuff... With Frank until like 3 in the morning.

I was in love with Frank. I really was. He was my best friend. He understood me, and accepted me the way I am .

Although we haven't said it yet, I know he loves me too.

Frank and I, we fit perfectly together like puzzle pieces.

It was the beginning of September and tomorrow was my first day of school. It was going to be hard not seeing Frank all day. But hey, I've got my phone, i can text him during class.

Gerard is constantly in New York, and constantly busy. So I barely got to see him. He and I were really close. Like, best friends. The good thing was there was no sexual tension. He knew I loved Frank, so I trusted him not to make a move. Even though I have overheard several conversations between Frank and Gerard, where Gerard says he feels that Frank "stole" me from him. Seeing as he had me first. And apparently Gerard actually liked me.

But none of that mattered now. I was with Frank. And I had no feelings for Gerard. At all. And he respected that. Thank god!

So next tuesday Gerard and I planned to go to dinner together to catch up, I haven't seen him in a while.

-Monday Night. September 10th 2001-

I was wandering around my room picking out clothes for dinner tomorrow. I decided on red skinny jeans, and a white T-shirt with black converse.

I got a text from Frank.

Are you going to leave me for Gerard?-Frankie.

That's stupidest thing I've ever read.

I called Frank. Too much to say in a text.

"Hello?" he said

"Frank Anthony Iero. No I am not leaving you for Gerard! Never would it do that ever! Wanna know why?!? Cause I lov- I mean... Uh"

"you love me" he said

"yes" I said quietly.

"I love you more" he said

I blushed uncontrollably.

"Come over now?" I asked.

"okay babe" he said and hung up.

I stripped down so I was in my bra and underwear and climbed into bed. He snuck in the window quietly and joined me in bed. I think I literally fell asleep as soon as my head touched his chest.

-Tuesday Morning. September 11th 2001-

I woke up at 8:55 to my phone ringing loudly.

It was My mom.I answered.

"Honey, before I tell you what's going on, do you know anyone who is in new york city right now?" she was crying.

Gerard. Oh shit. What happened?

"Yes I do. Gerard. Why?!" I said panicky.

"Honey, there's been and accident. Turn on the tv"

I turned on the tv to see on of the twin towers, not there anymore. I watched in horror as the second one crumbled from the impact of the second plane.

I was balling my eyes out. I hung up the phone.

Gerard was right there. He literally worked right beside there.

My phone rang again, it was Mikey.

"Mikey!" I sobbed

"Has he called you?" he asked impatiently.

"no!" I sobbed louder.

"I'll be there in 5 mins. Have frank with you" he said and hung up

I called Frank.

"H-hello?" he asked in his sleepy voice.

Oh shit. He doesn't know what happened.

"Frank, baby, I don't know how to tell you this, but there was an accident in New York" I said

"..Gerard.." he said

"We don't know if he's okay. Nobody can get a hold of him" I said

"I'll be over in 1 minute" he said and hung up.

I was losing it. I fell to the floor. My legs couldn't support my body. I was shaking uncontrollably and crying my eyes out. Frank picked me up, bridal style, and carried me downstairs to wait for Mikey.

I heard screeching tires and someone slam on the breaks out side of my house. Mikey was here.

Frank and I ran outside and got in the car with Bob, Ray and Mikey.

Ray was driving

"Where we going?" I asked

"To find my brother" he said, trying to keep strong.

Just then my phone rang. It was Gerard.

"it's him" I whispered.

"answer it, god damn it!" they all yelled

I put it on speaker phone.

"hello?" he said in a calm voice

"Gerard! Oh my god! I was so scared! I didn't know where you were, or of you were okay, I was just so scared!" I said

"I'm on my way home. There's busses taking everyone home" he said

"Everyones here with me" I said

"Guys, there's something I've realized and I wanna say it." he said

"What is it" Frank said

"Fuck art" he said

We all chuckled. At least he was okay. I stopped crying.

"Whatcha gonna do without art" I asked

"We're gonna start a band" he said