Will i change?

A nervous moment!

After practicing non-stop for a few weeks, TS finally announced that their comeback is this friday on Music Bank. When you heard that you are performing for a crowd a few days later, your stomach started churning and you felt sick.

After the choreographer teacher announced, he left followed by other dancers while you are rooted still on the floor, unable to move. B.A.P saw you sitting on the floor motionless so they walked towards you.

"Seoyeonnie, are you okay?" Youngjae asked as he tapped your shoulders. "Are you unwell?" Himchan asked, worried. Soon, you stood up and ran towards the toilet as you felt sick and once you reached the toilet, you ran to an empty cubicle and threw up.

After a while, you washed your mouth and walked out of the toilet weakly. B.A.P are outide waiting for you. Once you saw them, you fell towards Jongup as you can't feel your legs. They quickly brought you back to their dorm.

Once you reached their dorm, you sat on the couch while Daehyun sat beside you. Himchan walked out of the kitchen while holding a cup of warm water. After you drank, you felt a little better. "Seoyeon-ah, what happened just now? Are you okay now?" Daehyun asked as he looked at you with worried expression. "I guess i was too nervous that my stomach started churning, making me feel sick." You replied weakly while putting down the cup. "Seoyeonnie, you'll be fine during the performance. Remember what i said to you when you first performed in front of me, araseo." Youngjae said as he patted you gently and you nodded weakly.

Friday came and you are wearing your performance clothes. After you change finished, you went out and sat on a chair beside Yongguk while gulping a bottle of water to calm yourself. Yongguk saw and took the bottle away from you. "Yah, drinking too much is not good for you since you will be rushing to the restroom instead of calming your nerves down." Yongguk said as you looked at him. "Mianhae, i'm just very nervous. What if i make any mistakes? Or what if i dance wrongly? What if-" Your words are cut by Yongguk who looked at you, "There are alot of what ifs if you only think negatively. Try to think positively, araseo and also try to think something that will calm yourself down and don't put too much stress on yourself, that will only make yourself more scared and nervous. If you really forget the dance moves, you can just look at the dancers or us so don't worry."

After Yongguk said finished, he patted your head and gave you a gummy smile before going to the other members. After awhile, you felt your phone vibrated so you took out your phone and saw two text notification.

You pressed on one text message and saw it's from Hak ssaem. You read the message, he wrote: "Seoyeonnie, this is your first time performing in front of a big crowd, right? Don't think too much and do your best araseo. After your performance, you might be busy but if you have time, text me back and i'll treat you chocolate ice-cream so fighting!!^^" After reading it, you smiled to yourself. After you read finished, you pressed the second text. You saw it's from Kam ssaem and you read the message. He wrote: "Seoyeon-ah, fighting on your first big performance. Do your best, araseo. I'll be here cheering for you." You read and smiled to yourself. *Hak ssaem, Kam ssaem. Thanks for your encouraging message. Neomu kamsahamnida. I'll do my best so that you will be proud of me and not think that i'm just a useless girl.* You thought as your expression and aura changed.

The members saw the gaze in your eyes have changed as well as your aura. They smiled while looking at each other. Soon, B.A.P is up. You went up behind B.A.P and the dancers.

While on stage performing, your gaze and aura didn't falter even after hearing fans shouting, cheering and whistling. After performing, you went down. The gaze in your eyes as well as your aura changed back to normal and your heart is beating very fast.

Once all of you reached the changing room, you quickly fell down onto a chair while panting hard. Daehyun saw and gave you a bottle of water. "You are good up there. Good job. We are really impressed by you." Daehyun said as he gave you a pat on the back. "Jinjja? Kamsahamnida." You said as you bowed while your face is beaming with happiness. "But.. You will be performing in front of crowds for a few weeks, keep up the good work and one month will pass by quickly." Himchan said and drank a mouthful of water from his bottle

Soon, it's time to go back. Everyone changed back to their casual clothes and went into the van. "Seoyeonnie, are you going back to Nataraja?" Zelo asked as he looked at you and you nodded. "Seoyeon-ah, i'll drop you off at Nataraja, is it okay?" Manager Kang asked as he is looking at the road. You just looked down. "She's alright with it hyung, gomawo." Daehyun replied as he looked at you.

On the way to Nataraja, you fell asleep with your head resting on Daehyun's shoulder. Daehyun saw your tired face and smiled.

Once the van arrived at Nataraja, Daehyun carried you out. When he reached the front gate, he saw Hak ssaem standing at the front gate. "Ssaem." Daehyun said softly and Hak ssaem just smiled while looking at you. "Daehyunnie, i'll take her back into her dorm. You are probably tired as well so faster go back and rest so that you have enough energy for tomorrow." Hak ssaem said as he carried you. "Ne, see you later ssaem." Daehyun said and walked out to the van.

As soon as Daehyun walked out, Hak ssaem carried you to your room. He layed you gently on your bed and covered blanket for you. "You worked hard today, i'm proud of you. I always am and always will." Hak ssaem whispered as he looked at you and smiled.