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Winter Nightmare.

Its the Summer of 2013. I guess you could say I'm one fortunate young lady. Im now 14 & support & well wishes have gotten me this far. It has been 4 months. I can say I'm gettin better everyday. Enjoy ♡

March 18th, 2013 ~

Those words .. so small yet so important. It was over, everything I thought I knew. This is the true story of my life, what happened in my senior year in Junior High. It was unexpected & this is how it started.

3 months earlier..

"Ugh I HATE being sick" I was moping all over the house complaining. This was a typical routine for me considering I never got sick & when I was it felt like the whole world had ended. It was December 26th, who gets sick the day after Christmas. Things suddenly changed I went from simply not being able to get out of bed to having my head stuck in the toilet for hours... Being sick this time was different than any other time. All my siblings had no idea what had happened. I heard banging on the bathroom door it was my brother Avery "ARE YOU ALRIGHT ?!". I couldnt answer, who would.. I sounded terrible & I was barely able to breathe .. He banged open the door seeing me lay on the floor, it was wild, crazy & it all happened in seconds. He wasnt concerned it was awkward .. he was disgusted. My face was pale you could say I looked just like death ..

It was the flu, the goddamn flu. It was going around like crazy this season. Everyone was wishing & hoping they didnt get it because it was the worst it had ever been aah this sucks, no school, no friends. I was even too weak to text :(. Dont get me wrong, I had plenty of people to talk to I just wasnt in the mood. Just my luck though, being sick ALL of winter break :( how great !

New Years rolled around. The flu was completely just biting me in the ass. I felt like I was dying. If I wasn't coughing up, I was sleeping. I never really ate anything. Yet my stomach would'nt hold anything.

I didnt return to school the next week at school after break. I told everyone I cared about, about having the flu but never did I think being 13 could get any more complicated with my health, I was healthy always never sick. I had a cough it was pretty nasty but I went to school I was taking antibiotics & it wasnt contagious I was told. I hoped all my worries had fled I no longer had the flu.

Being a 13 year old girl that had just gotten over the flu was hard. I was 15 pounds lighter & didn't fit into any of my clothes. Everything looked baggy on me as if I didn't know my size. People commented "WOW YOU'RE SO SKINNY OMG I WISH I WAS !" .. Did they really think I wanted to be skinny, 115 was perfect being 100 just left me with feeling fragile & weak it had to be one of the hardest things to keep a confidence about ...

Fast forward to February 1st..

Bleh still had that nasty cough it sucked. Felt like I was on antibiotics forever but it had only really been like a month. My cough wouldnt go away & my aunt knew something else was wrong.. it was scary.

Sitting & waiting to be checked by Dr.Opto had to be the worst wait of my life. Finally when I was called in he listened to me breathe. I mean I've always been called lazy, I hate running & couldnt do it for long. It was a Friday & I had just had gym, ew.

I waited for a response from him that was filled with answers but got none. All I got was a suggestion, "Mrs.Paul you should take her to our x-ray lab.." I had an x-ray before, nothing bad just I sprained my arm it was terrible when I was 7 but now it was 7 years later

*At the Lab*

I was instructed to remove everything from my waist up. That meant earrings, my neckalce shirt & tank. I then got dressed in the gown. I'm not gonna lie it was pretty awkward being I guess half naked in front of a stranger who was trying to make small talk. "So what grade are you in ?" I muttered 8th as the cold machine was then pressed upon me. I was instructed to breathe in & hold my breath until the photo was taken. I was hoping & praying this would lead to answers.