Tear Stains

Entry 8

Dear diary,

                    I'm sorry it's been a while since I wrote in here. It's now August 25 of 1945. The final meeting of the Axis was on August 6. The reason I haven't written in a while was because I was in the hospital.

                    This was because while at the meeting, something happened to my country. I don't remember much, but I later found out America-san bombed Hiroshima and Nagasaki with atomic bombs. What I remember was being at the meeting with Italy-chan and Germany-san. I blacked out for a while cause the next thing I remember is waking up with Germany and Italy around me. Germany's voice muffled asking if I was alright and what had happened while Italy was crying hysterically. There was a lot of blood, and my chest felt like I was being pressed or slowly ripped open, or both? It hurt to breathe. The only thing I could hear clearly, were my own gasped breaths..

                    I still haven't told Italy-chan how I feel. Who knows if I ever will..? He seems much happier with Germany anyway. I know I could never make Feliciano as happy as Ludwig does. So I'll just force a smile and let them be happy. I'm done with this journal, but I have one last thing to say.. I just wish I could bring myself to tell Italy "Ti amo".