Hidden Feelings

Realisation Strikes

Draco P.O.V

I was in my 5th year of Hogwarts when I realised who I had feelings for. Everyone assumed I would like some Slytherin girl, dark hair dark eyes, and I thought I would have to but I didn't. I never would have imagined I would have fallen for some bushy haired freckled face mud-blood, sorry muggle born. There I was one day, Crabbe was asking me when I was going to ask Pansy Parkinson, that little brat, out. Everyone assumed that we were going to get together. "I'm telling you Draco, if you don't ask her out soon, someone else will!" he said as we studied for our Defence Against the Dark Arts O.W.L in the common room, well I studied Crabbe and Goyle sat next to me talking with their books open at a random page. "Yeah I'll ask her soon mate, soon." That's what I said every time. I never actually did develop feelings for her, but it pleased my parents and I kept my reputation so it had to be good right? I had to make it work. 

You know the funny thing was I don't think she ever did have feelings for me either, I think she did it for the same reasons I did, although I know she did have a crush on that Potter, every girl , and some boys, in Hogwarts did although they didn't like to admit it.  Was I ever going to tell anyone who I really liked though? I wasn't sure how to handle it. My family would be appalled, I was head over heals in love with some muggle born who was smarter than me and she was Harry Potters best friend, they would never except it, I would be disowned! So the only way I figured I could handle it was avoid her, I would have to avoid Hermione Granger for the next 3 years of school, and possibly for the rest of my life.  

I slammed by books shut, and stormed off to bed! Even sleeping couldn't help me take my mind off of her though, I still had dreams about her, nice dreams, we started a family together in one, we lived happily on a farm will lots of sheep and horses and what ever animal she wanted. Nice dreams, not those nasty dreams other boys my age have of girls they think are "hot".  I eventually drifted off to sleep.