How to Love

"Stop it, Von! Stop acting like a child! Can... can you please move on? Get a grip on yourself!" My sister yelled at me as she control herself. I just stared at her.

I threw another piece of shit. I don't care if it cost a million. Darn! I can buy more!

"Gosh!" My sister looked really wasted because of me. Her hair is too messy, her eyes are puffy.

 "Please..." she said in a begging voice.

 
"Please Von... just please stop this..." her voice is broken as she started to cry, "Stop this!" I wiped her tears and hugged her tight. "Okay then."

I turned my back and left the house.

"Von!" my sister yelled. "Saan ka na naman pupunta?"

I smirked, "Maghahanap ako ng lugar kung saan ko pwedeng ilabas ang lahat ng galit ko."

"Von naman! Itigil muna 'to!" she demanded. "Kahit ngayon lang, Von. Intindihin mo naman ang sarili mo!"

"Tss." I walked away. Knowing that she will follow me.

"Naawa ako sayo, Von! Itigil muna 'to!" she said while panting.

"You pity me? I don't need it." I said with gritted teeth.

"Von please..." she begged.

"What? Fuck it! You want what? Do you want me to pretend as if nothing happened? The fuck!" My tears keep on flowing. Fuck! I may look like a gay right now but who cares?

She grabbed my arm as she tried to make me calm down.

"Maybe yes. Maybe I want you to pretend. I don't want you to be like that! I don't want to see you in pain, looking so miserable, drowning in tears, I... I don't want to see you in mess. After all, I'm still your sister, and I'm freaking concerned about you so please stop this! I'm begging, Von." She burst into tears after saying those words.

She's right. My life is totally in mess right now. I'm so damn miserable. But do I need to pretend? Come on! That's a fucking bullshit!

July 26, 2018. The day we will finally be going to tie the knot in front of the altar. I am so damn happy. Finally, we will be going to be one. Von Jethro Fernandez and Tristel Mercado soon to be Fernandez.

I close the invitation with a big smile on my face. I can't wait for that day to come. Today is the 19th day of July and I'm so excited about our wedding. Everything is already set and I can't wait to marry the woman in my dreams. 

I'm on my way going to our rehearsal. I can't control my feelings right now. I want to scream because of too much happiness. It's driving me crazy! After a minute, I arrived. I park my car and excitedly walk straight to the church.

"Hey, honey!" She approaches while waving her hands. I smiled widely and I gave her a peck on her lips. I chuckled and pinch her cheeks.

"Magsisimula na po tayo." Father said.

"Sorry, Father. Na-excite lang." I joked.

The ceremony started and afterward, it ended so fast. I insists to drive her home and she agreed. I started the engine of my car. In my peripheral vision, I saw Tristel hiccuping. Oh! My wife is tired already.

"Are you sleepy, honey?" I asked.

"Yeah." She answered between her hiccups.

"Come here. Sleep in my shoulder." I guided her as she put her head on my shoulder.

"Thanks, honey." she smiled, "That's why I love you."

I smiled too and kissed her forehead, "I love you too, honey. Sleep and dream of me."
She smiled before closing her eyes. How I love this woman!