a second chance

STELLA

*stella's pov*

"and here i thought that he changed but im guessing not. i know that he's done it way to many times before and he knows that im fed up with his flirting but why? i thought he wanted me back, guess i was wrong." i say while trying to stop the tears from falling.

"get some rest stel, i know you've had a bad day." cheska has been there for me ever since, i know she's nate's cousin but she's also my best friend. i give her a tight squeeze and i nod assuring her that i'll just sleep it off.

"i'll call you once i get home. im really sorry stel." i know she's worried about me considering how fragile i am at the moment but i try me best to give her a smile.

"that's okay. ill probably be asleep by then." she hugs me and tells me to text her if i needed to talk. i walk her to the door and she waves good bye at me.

i walk back to my room and immediately lie on my bed. the memories that me and nate had seem to flash back.

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"stella!" i look back and *click*.

"what was that for?" i ask him partly irritated.

"souvenier." i look at him confused waiting for him to explain further. "cant i have a picture of my girlfriend in my own camera? youre the most beautiful thing that has ever happened to me and i want to capture every moment with you."

"that almost made my heart swoon." i laugh at him and begin to walk knowing that in just seconds he will be beside me. i take the camera from him holdin it in front of us.

"say cheeze!" i click the camera and look at the picture. "aww. baby you look so cute when your not ready" i burst out laughing.

we take a few more shots of each other until i notice that his camera is new. "did your mom buy this for you babe?" he shakes his head at the same time saying no. "your dad then?" still a no, and i start to wonder who gave it to him. it's a high end nikon dslr camera and i know for one that he's not a mr. photographer kind of guy.

"read it." that's all he says as i look at the pink envelope that he puts in my hands.

"every moment with you is worth capturing cause i know that i can revisit those moments in photographs. but we both know that im not the photographer but you, and i hope you'll capture each picture perfect moment of us together. i love you my princess, my queen. happy first aniversarry" i didnt notice the tears falling. i gave him a tight hug and a kiss. no words could describe how happy i am.  

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i smile at the memory of our first aniversarry. the camera is still with me though i bearly use it since things were getting cold between us.

i take the camera from the shelf and look at the pictures. from the huge smiles and funny faces they were getting smaller. i notice a picture of him looking down, this was the time when he was so irritated at me and eventually didnt talk to me.

my attention draws to the shelf where other gifts from nate are placed. "i cant believe an entire shelf is filled with his gifts." each gift has it's special meaning as to why he gave it to me, but i dont want to drown my self everyday upon the memory of nate. i lie down and try my best to fall asleep.

"why are you so quiet baby? you dont seem so happy to see me." i watch as he makes funny faces to cheer me up. i try my best to smile but i cant hide the fact that i have been hurt enough..

"stop it nate. stop it okay?" he looks at me and smiles. he acts like nothing is wrong, that our relationship is just fine but its not.

"i just wanted to cheer you up baby. you know i dont like seeing a frown on your face."

"then why did you put it there in the frist place?"

"what did i do?"

"dont be so dense nate. stop acting like nothings wrong cause everything is just wrong in our relationship." a tear starts to fall but i immediately wipe it away so that he wouldnt see.

"stella, tell me. what did i do wrong?" the look on his face tells it all. he has no idea as to what he is doing. can he really be this dense or is he just playing with me.

"i cant do this anymore" i can no longer keep the tears from falling. ive been hurt enough by someone who i trusted not to break my heart. the one person who i chose to trust the proved my decision to be wrong. 

RING......RING.....RING..... 

i wake up to the sound of the phone. "it was only a dream." i sigh in relief. i look at the clock its already 7, i pick up and answer.

"hello?" my mom's voice on the other line is the only thing i need right now to feel better.

"dear are you okay? have you eaten your dinner?" i can hear dads voice in the background, he's talking to someone on the phone as well.

taking a deep breath. "yeah mom. im okay. im just about to go down and eat." we talk for about 5 minutes, she didnt want to keep me from dinner.

"bye dear. we'll see you soon." she passes the phone to my dad.  

"i miss you my princess. dont skip on your meals okay? we'll be home soon enough."

"okay dad. i miss you too. will be waitig for you both."

"we love you so much darling." a hint of sadness is noticeable in their voicess. i smile knowing that my parents love me so much.

"i love you too. i'll be eating dinner now okay mom." i hang up and head down stairs.

the house feels empty, with my parents away in london to supervise on the finishing their hotel and my brother, kurt, is in new york for a business deal as well. im stuck here in LA in a house only with mrs. scott to watch over me.

after eating dinner i go back to my room and boot up the computer. i click on skype to see if anyone was online. me and my cousins were habing a conference call and just when i was about to call it a nigt. *pop!* "can we talk? im really sorry for what happened." i hesitate to reply at first but i know that we really need to talk.

"okay. just meet me tomorrow afternoon at the coffee shop near my place." i shut down my computer and go back to sleep.