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Chapter 1: Only The Beginning...

Growing up I never really thought that I would become the person I am today. Not saying the way I am is bad or anything, it's just me being me. Nobody knew how me being a five year old child who used to constantly sit on the floor and play with barbies would change the way I am now, as a woman. My mother used to tell me, "Janette, why aren't you outside with those other kids?" And I would just sit there shrugging. Those "kids" didn't like me, and I didn't like them either. I don't know why. Just thinking about everything corrupts my mind and makes the room spin in countless circles that never ends. Blindfolded by being very antisocial from the enclosed space they called a room, I never interacted with anyone. And I was fine with that. I was fine with being the "weird kid" or the kid who never spoke to anyone when they tried to talk to me. Staying in my room until dark wasn't hard either until everyone went to bed. It was hard sleeping at night. At times it would thunder so loud it shook my bed. But that wasn't the reason why  sleep was cut short for me. It was from such negative energy from others inside and out of home. I cried every night as I got older. Being so afraid of what the real world would bring me. Believing I would be a child forever and wouldn't have to worry about adult options. But I was wrong.