Forgive me (Melix Fanfiction)

Trying to change things

I woke up in the middle of the night,or morning..
as you want to say.
It was 3:33 am.That's the same hour I've been woken up in this days,because of this nightmare that can't get out of my head.
I saw Zoey sleeping peacefully,then I checked my phone because I couldn't fall asleep.
"I miss you baby"I read a message saying..wait is it from him?!
I opened the message,it was just my mom.I replied to her and got up not waking up Zoey.I knew her house just as much as I knew mine so I got to the bathroom.I threw some water on my face and then looked in the mirror.
I was ugly.
My under eye area was signed in black,I became more and more skinny.I couldn't even look at myself without crying.What was I doing?
I was literally ruining my life for an idiot that doesn't have feelings.
I didn't want to bother Zoey with my rush of emotions even if she said it was nothing,so I decided to go back home.
I changed and went to Zoey,I gave her a kiss on the cheek
"Thank you for everything"
I whispered and then I went out without making noise.
Brighton is already cold,but in the early morning,it is even worst.But in that moment I didn't care about anything,I didn't care about how cold it was outside.
This time I'm going to talk to him,even if he doesn't want to.I'm going to take out everything that stayed in for all of this time,even if Zoey told me not to care about him.
it was 4am.
I breathed in my hands to warm them up but it worked just for a few moments.
Finally I could see my home in the morning fog,I got my keys out and opened the door
I panicked in shock
What the heck is that?!
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Sara