Promises

Time For Tour

I was exhausted, I wanted nothing more than to just lay down and go to sleep. As soon as I walked through the door I was welcomed with a pleasant smell. I was enraptured for a second, but then confused, walking in to see Jungkook in the kitchen cleaning. I walked in the apartment, going toward the kitchen and I could see he had his head phones in, singing along to the music quietly.

"Our life was cutting through so loud, memories are playing in my full mind. I hate this part, paper hearts and I'll hold a piece of yours." He sang and I smiled, I always loved his voice and I encouraged him to come tour with me and talk to my record company, but he was so shy. I went behind him as he went to the sink, passing the dinner he had laid out on the table and wrapped my arms around him. He smiled and giggled as I laid my head on his shoulder and turned around to kiss me.

"Hey, how was the library?" I asked, pulling away from his lips.

"Good, where were you? I called you." He pouted and I kissed his pouty lips.

"I went to, uh, see Jackson and Namjoon about that job. I must have had my phone on silent, I'm sorry baby." I told him and he just nodded before wrapping his arms around me.

"Well, what did they say? Are you going to work for them after you're done touring?" He asked hopefully and I shrugged, trying to seem uninterested.

"Maybe, but I like touring. I can make more money and we can both travel, and everything. We don't have to pay for food or travel, it's the perfect life baby." I tried to persuade him but he shook his head.

"Maybe to you, but not for me. I like staying in one place, just, it's better." He told me and I nodded.

"Fine, after this tour, no more. We'll stay in one place." Him smiling at my words and kissing me before patting my shoulders.

"Go get cleaned up so we can eat." He told me and I gave him one more kiss before going.

I walked over to the bathroom and started washing my hands, but I couldn't help but to think about just how everything was really going to be hard these next few months. Especially since I haven't even told Jungkook that I'm going to be on tour for an additional 2 or 3 months. He's going to be so mad, but I don't know any other way to provide for us. Jackson and Namjoon can hardly provide for themselves, and that's why they're always gambling to make more money, but it just backfires on them. I sighed and looked over in the mirror at myself, thinking just about how much it's going to hurt him. He's never going to be able to look at me the same or trust me, and I know because I can barely stand to look at myself right now. I finished washing my hands and went back out to see him at the table waiting on me.

That night was just filled with very careful and touchy conversations, on my part mostly because I avoided trying to talk about tour and the job with Jackson and Namjoon. Instead, I let him tell me about how much he's been studying and stories on what he does after he leaves school. How he always passes this pet store and he can't help but to go inside and look at the animals. I smiled as he told me today he went inside and the store manager let him take this fluffy white cat out and play with it. He told me about how cute it was and everything and I couldn't think of anything else, except for picturing him with the little cat. An idea formed in my head and I couldn't wait for in the morning, I knew that it would be perfect.

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Today was the day I was leaving for tour, and by the way Kookie clung to me all night, I knew he didn't want me to go and I didn't want to leave him either. The last thing he wanted to do was come with me, so that was out of the question, but I just wish that there was someway we could work things out. He stayed cuddled into my side and holding on to me tight, and I left my arms around him. I could feel his breath against my side and I was really going to miss it, especially how well his body pieces with mine. I turned on my side so he was practically laying in my chest, and kissed his forehead as I held on to him tighter. He shifted around some in his sleep before completely becoming still and resting against me. I relaxed and felt myself slowly about to go to sleep again before my alarm began to go off. My flight would be in two hours, and I needed to get up, but I didn't want to. I reached my arm back and switched the alarm off, another hour wouldn't hurt. I wrapped my arms around him tighter and rested my eyes, feeling him move so he could rest his head against my neck. I just wanted to stay like this forever.