You Can't have Children?

One Shot

This idea popped up in my head and thought I should write it down. I hope you guys like it :) Let me know what you think.

"Hey Er. You home?" Jay yelled out as he entered their apartment. He was out with Ruzek and Atwater for the day. He assumed Erin would be home, but she was nowhere to be found. He called her cell twice and it went straight to voicemail both times. He thought she was just out with Burgess, so he went and grabbed a beer and went to sit on the couch.

They had been dating for a year and a half and were living together. He had the ring, and had already received the approval from Hank Voight. He had a plan to propose in the coming weeks at a romantic getaway.

He got up to go take a shower and he stumbled on a pregnancy test box. It was empty. He looked around, but he couldn't find the test.

Halstead heard the door open and hoped it was Erin.

"Hey." Halstead got closer and gave her a hug. She was distant. He grabbed her hands. "I have a question to ask you. Are you pregnant?" Jay asked giving her a grin proving how happy he was.

She looked at his smile and tears fell down her face. She shook her head as she started heavily crying.

"Hey, come here." Jay said as he pulled her head into his chest. "We can try again, Er. We will have kids someday."

"No, we won't." Erin said crying into his chest.

Jay stood there confused. "Why?"

"Not only did they tell me I'm not pregnant, but they told me I'm never going to be."

"You can't have children?"

"No. I'm sorry, Jay." She pulled away and walked into the bedroom.

"Er, this isn't your fault. We'll see a specialist. We're not giving up." He followed her into the bedroom and stood right in front of her.

"She was a specialist, Jay." Erin said as she cried harder. "You know, I never thought I wanted kids, God I thought I would be such a horrible mother, until I met you. And then right when I had the yearning for kids, for our babies, I find out that I can't have children. It's the universe telling me that I should not procreate."

"Erin, you can't think like that. We'll keep trying. If not, we can adopt." Jay said. He was heartbroken, but he loved Erin Lindsay.

"Jay, just go. Go build a life for yourself with someone that can provide you with a stable life and a family, cause I sure as hell can't provide you with that."

"Baby, don't say stuff like that. I love you, not anyone else. Erin, I'm not going anywhere."

"Jay, you've already sacrificed enough for me. I know you want children, and I can't provide that to you. It's better if you go."

"Erin, yes I want children. But I want them with you and only you. We'll figure this out, I promise."

Erin started crying and he pulled her to his chest and hugged her tightly.

"You deserve better, Jay. You're an amazing man, you deserve better." Erin said hitting his chest.

"Erin, you're the best thing that ever happened to me and I'm not letting you go. You're more than everything I could have ever wanted," Jay said kissing the top of her head.

"Except providing you with children." Erin replied pulling away once again.

"Stop. We'll try again, and we'll adopt. Erin, I love you and we're going to get through this together."

"Why me? Why do you love me, Jay? You can have a better life, but you choose to have one with me, an ex-drug addict who went down the rabbit hole again and again and..."Erin tried to continue, but was cut off by Jay.