this might sound wierd but i'm going to use this as like a personal diary now because i can't evan do it in paper because of my strict parents, now its not a bad thing that i have them but i would love to have some of my own, if it werent for a simple friend request on facebook then i would'nt have to worry about anything i'm honestly a good girl i have no doubts in life and i could probbly get anything i want (if i try) but gosh this thing is like killing me i want to slap my self in the face & just delete my facebook but i can't oh cheese - its! anyway, i got a friend request from a boy, now thats uncommon for me because hey i'm not attractive! and im fine with that i like just hanging out with my friends with no boys i mean i can't even tallk to them! im anti-social but i accepted anyway! but when i checked his profile picture out he was a thug... a gangster gosh something about him turns me on! omg and hes tatted and i cringe and that because hey i like people with tattos, :) anyway the next day he had sended me a message now i was already warned by my best friend "he's dangerous, stay away from that" but i didnt listen and now we have a very close relationship we never met but i did see him once without him knowing it was me, and for some reason i truly can't get him out of my head, i mean he's tan i'm white! like all those love stories right?? i can't have him as a boyfriend because my parents would flip out litterly and my parents friends would to it's "bad rep" as you could say i mean right? maybe i was taught diffrently but i cant control my emotions towards this kid, but i'm not sure if he will like me for the real me i mean i eat my pizza with a fork and knife, and he gets tatted so young, were are his parents right? gosh i need something
