After Tenth

Chapter 10

Even if I fall in love again with someone new ,it will never be the way I loved you .

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"Are you in love ?"

"No. Not now "

"You know what Shanaya ! You are the worst at lying . It's Kethan right ?"

Adaah had been torturing me with her questions. But I don't know . It didn't feel wrong . I mean yeah I liked him , but ....

This is wrong . This ain't supposed to be happening . I couldn't have moved on over Abhi .
He was my crush in 10th . Stupid . Dumbo me . Idiot me. Leave it . Let's just say , we were two strangers who said that they hate love stories , but sadly both wanted one between them . None of them ever had the courage and Shanaya decided to move on for the sake of her grades. For her mom , for her CGPA .

Well yes I had moved on over him . Abhi. One guy I thought I would never be able to forget . I thought I used to like him , but now the mention of his name doesn't make me blush , nor does it bring  silence . To me , now it just doesn't matter anymore . His existence  was now  , more like that of a ghost.
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He was very good at poetry . Every time he tried his hand at it , all he reaped was gold , like magic.

And it took me  seven months just to realise , if I was ever in love , then I was in love with his poems and that expression of  silenced passionate love , not him .

But I'm glad that I moved on after my half yearlies .

It's good to hold on . But the trick is to know to hold on till when .

I had given up on him for my own good .

Okay too much luv shuv te chicken khurana  ! Too boring ! Crushes get sick after a time. I knew this wasn't true love , so I was preparing myself to not fall for anyone before college. You know , I had made this plan , where I get into college , become the college's singing diva , and then bump into my prince charming ( or should I say   to - be doctor charming !)  and have everything perfect . Love him , eventually get married to him  and bwahaha... I mean no distractions before college .

But nah . Looks like god had his own plans for me .

I was sixteen , and I was pretty proud about the fact that in these sixteen years of existence , I hadn't dated a single guy ( not a girl either ! I am pretty straight   -.- )

But Kethan . Oh god ! I could feel myself blushing so bad even though he sat on the bench in the adjacent row. God ! A crush in 11th standard ! Too bad ! I could see the end as it began ! But there was no turning back now ! Too late to regret !

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Me and Yohaan were sitting on the 3rd bench  savouring the sweet grapes given to me by my mom in tiffin . It was a break and break  meant personal hush- hush conversations with the new friends I had made .

Kethan was sitting on the first bench and my eyes just never left him . Yohaan was telling me something but I don't think I was paying much attention . Kethan's grace had all my attention. Yohaan noticed . He , then in a very husky voice asked me , " You like Kethan , na ?"
And I like an idiot , who had probably lost her senses said " Yes , I do . I like him ."

And Yohaan , who was probably in for a shock screamed out aloud " What ! You have a crush on Kethan ???" Damn ! The whole class turned silent and Kethan turned back to look at me just to give me an embarrassed smile and Yohaan a cold glare . God ! This was so embarrassing ! I turned pink in an instant and I decided to walk to the washroom . I felt like punching Yohaan so bad ! It was so embarrassing that I literally avoided  Kethan as much as I could . It felt like I had commited some sorta crime . And Yohaan just kept teasing me all this while . Aaargh !!!