Great, its Friday I have to go to my dad's today. I feel like throwing up I genuinely hate it there. My weekends pretty much consist of being screamed at, being degraded, and ignored by my dad. Well I guess I should start packing. I grab a big bag and throw two pairs of shorts and jeans, and four shirts. I know it seems like I'm over packing for just a weekend but I know sometime my clothes will get messed up by something being thrown at me or will get ripped so I try to over pack.
After I'm done I go to the living room and stare at my mother until she finally notices I'm there she looked at me straight in the eyes and said "Took you long enough you stupid bitch, finally I get to be away from you ,I don't even see why you haven't killed yourself already you know you're the reason me and you're dad got divorced neither of us wanted you so we thought maybe if we got divorced you would be depressed enough to commit suicide but of course you're to selfish to even do that and by the way I was thinking you should live with your dad from now on because he treats you the way someone like you should be treated you disgusting selfish piece of shit." I shivered at the thought of living with my cold, heartless dad but then composed myself and simply nodded.
Her boyfriend came up the stairs and said "Come on tramp lets go." I went out the door and hopped into the backseat quickly putting my headphones in and soon enough we were half way to my own personal hell I was still listening to music which was my only escape until I suddenly got slapped into reality and my headphones had been pulled out then my mother harshly said "You dumbass cunt I've told you 5 times that we were here now get the fuck out of my god damn car." I quickly said "bye." And hopped out of the car and slowly made my way up to the door I knocked twice when my dad's girlfriend Melanie opened the door I was immediately hit with the smell of hard liquor and cigarettes Mel then pushed me inside and closed the door then she went upstairs while flipping me off .
I went into the living room hoping my dad was in a good mood but as soon as I looked at him I knew he wasn't he had bags under his eyes indicating he hadn't been sleeping and a bottle of liquor grasped tightly in his hand I was surprised it hadn't broke there were also bottles overfilling the trashcan he was watching cage fighting which always enraged him farther. He didn't even look at me but I knew he was going to start yelling by the look in his eyes they were so filled with rage and hatred yet there was something else behind that depression maybe which hurt me because I knew it was me who had made him feel like that because I was the horrible reason why my parents divorced or that's what I've been told my whole life. I was taken out of my thoughts when he stared yelling saying "YOU'RE LATE YOU PIECE OF SHIT WHAT YOU AND YOURE DISGUSTING MOTHER ARE TO RETARTED TO READ A GOD DAMN CLOCK JESUS FUCKING CHRIST THAT'S A KNEW LOW FOR YOU DUMBASSES !" I nodded and quietly said "I'm sorry I was ju..." but I was interrupted by him yelling "I DON'T WANT TO HEAR YOUR ANNOYING EXCUSES JUST DON'T BE LATE EVER AGAIN OR ELSE." I nodded and left the room.
I went upstairs and layed on my twin sized mattress that layed on the floor of my so called room it was more of a big closet it had enough room for my bed a little t.v. which sat on the floor and a space for my bag. I turned on my t.v. and started watching the news I was intently watching when the man said "There has just been a huge crash involving Tara Berlett and her boyfriend James White it has been said that rich was driving when he lost control and the car flipped over and they were both killed on impact ."
I couldn't believe what I had just heard my mother was dead I started to cry when my dad called me I quickly wiped my face and ran to the living room he looked at me in the eyes for the first time in my life -he had always said I was never worth it- with sympathy and quietly said "the police called and said..... Well, your mother is dead Jane and you're living with me now and ill enroll you in a school near here by Monday I'm sorry for your loss." And with that he dropped the conversation and his eyes left mine refilled with hatred once again I took that as my cue to leave and went back to bedroom where I let my tears silently fall I can't believe it I mean my mother was no ordinary loving mother but my dad was much worse and now I'll be living with him this is also the time I'm glad I never had friends so I wouldn't have to go through that whole awkward goodbye thing. Now I'm going to have to prepare myself for 10th grade at a whole new school with new people maybe they'll be nicer .I grabbed my phone and started listening to music until I slowly drifted off to sleep
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This is my first story I've ever written so I hope you like it so far. I will probably update soon.
Also I'm having Ariana Grande play as Jane but it will be when Ariana Grande had brown hair,I hope that isn't to confusing but it works with my ideas for this story.There's a picture of her too.
