Sensuality

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Her
I witnessed my own heartbreak at a age that to most is to young to even think about having a private relationship with somebody. At 14 I felt more pain than I could've ever imagined. It felt as if my whole heart had been ripped out of my small, seemly slow beating chest. I had felt so disgustingly worthless that the only thing that could keep me sane were the records of his own voice.
I couldn't properly walk for days after he suddenly came to my house at three in the morning, tapped on my window and said that he doesn't like me anymore. That's apparently all he ever felt towards me. He liked me. So at the age of 14, while all my so called friends were out bowling or doing any other stupid stuff that made no sense to me. I was sitting in my bed, crying my big eyes out, looking at photos of a curly brown haired boy with a thick British accent and a smile too big for his own god damn face and eyes so mesmerisingly green, they could get a hippie to stop smoking crack at Woodstock. That's what happened when I gave everything I had to a 15 year old teenage boy, and he took that everything with open arms. He not only made a mess of my innocence, but of my mental state too. It came to the point, that at the age that I'am now I can't stand fucking couples and their forevers, or little corny quotes about love. Because that to me is a load of bullshit. That's all they ever do to you, that is all he ever did to me. He fucked me up with such a puppy love that I can't look at guy and feel pure disgust at them, for no reason. Just because of him I now have a hard time trying to sound normal to guys that talk to me, without my voice coming out in venomous tone. He just left and he took all my emotions with him, when I was only 14.

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HI GUYS, firstly I would like to apologise for the extremely shitty and most confusing first chapter >:) I promise you it's gonna get heaps better babes <3
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OH YEAH AND BTW THE PIC OF YOUNG HAROLD IS FOR YOU GUYS TO HAVE A CLEAR IMAGINE SET IN MIND OF WHAT HE LOOKED LIKED WHEN OUR MAIN CHARACTER WAS 14 BABES XXXX