It's Always Been Him

Where it all began

I've known him for 9 years of my life. He has been my best friend and the longest relationship I've ever had with a guy. I can get lost in his amazing blue eyes and his smile melts my heart. His kids are like my own I love them with all my heart and hope someday, when I have kids, that they'll be like them. I love him with everything I have. And yet....I won't tell him. There's days when I think he feels the same but also days I think he hates me. When we went out for drinks last night I sorta flirted with him and he flirted back. Him and his wife have been divorced for 3 and 1/2 years and he isn't seeing anyone. He's the best partner there is and we have an amazing bond. Last night showed me that things could possibly be something between us and I'm gonna find out for sure.
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(Elliott's POV)

I love her with all my heart. It's crazy to be so in love with someone and not be with them. I've known her for 9 amazing years of my life and I love how close we are. She treats my kids like they are her's and it makes me smile seeing her bond with them. Her eyes...Oh God...I could get lost in them and her laugh makes my heart explode. Kathy and I have been divorced for 3 and 1/2 years. She always blamed Liv and she was the one who tried to keep Kathy and I together. We had drinks the other night and there was a lot of sexual tension. She flirted with me and I flirted with her. The chemistry between us was crazy. I probably could have taken her on the bar stool right then and there but I kept that to myself. I don't know if she was feeling that way but I know I was!
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8:30 p.m.  (Liv's POV)
I just finished texting Elliott. I asked him if he could meet me at the bar so we could talk. I also told him that there was something important I needed to get off my chest...so now there is no way out.
*Elliot's text back* ~ I'd love to! What time? Is everything okay?
*Liv* ~ Great! Now. And yes everything is fine.
*Elliott* okay see you in a few!
I grab my keys and head down to my car. I'm so nervous to tell him because I'm still thinking that maybe he loves Kathy.. He's been single since they split and I've taken that as a bad sign.. I guess we'll find out though!!
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(Elliott's POV)
She makes it to the bar before I do. I spot her car as I'm walking in and I automatically am nervous... I'm telling her I love her tonight and take it from there. I hope she feels the same!!

Once I'm inside she is the first person I see. She is dressed in her fitting pink-purple dress with some black high heels.. She looks absolutely stunning and it takes my breath away!! I couldn't keep my eyes off of her as I approached and I could tell she noticed because her cheeks turned a few shades of pink and she looked away from me. "You look...WOW... You look great Liv!" I say with a little to much of a growl. "You to El!" She said it while looking me up and down. "Look" she says "I have something important I need to tell you!" I look at her with concern filled in my eyes. "Me too, but are you okay?"
"I'm fine. But once I tell you I'll feel so much better El...I've been wanting to tell you it for a long time." We sit down at the booth she had picked out for us. I make sure to sit right beside her that way I have a little more confidence to tell her. "El...I wanted to tell you that....I wanted to tell you." She looks away but I can tell that her eyes are beginning to fill with tears. "Liv...what is it? You can tell me anything! I'm not going anywhere..ill be right here." The words must have stung her cause when she looks at me there is shock written all over her face. She slides across me and as she it getting out of the booth she says "It was stupid El... I shouldn't have asked you to come here....I'm sorry but I..." I cut her off as I finally say it. " I love you Olivia Benson! I've loved you since I first laid eyes on you! But I was to stupid to figure it out and I was to big of a coward to tell you... Liv.. Please tell me you do too? I've waited 3 and 1/2 years to get the courage to say it. After Kathy and I divorced...the only person I wanted to be with was you! So please...please say you love me back?!"
By this time I don't know if her tears are happy tears or sad tears but I don't care. I grab her by her waist and pull her so close to where there is no space left between us and I kiss her.. I kiss her long and hard and filled with love and so much passion. After what feels like hours I break apart and look her in the eyes. Her's are still closed and I take that as a good sign and give her a quick little peck on the lips and I say it again. " I love you Olivia! I mean it... I love you so much that it hurts and when I'm without you...I feel so lost." She looks me in the eyes and smiles so wide that I think she might be getting close to her ears and she says " I love you too El!! I always have and I always will! That's what I came here to say... That's what I wanted you to know and I was so afraid that you didn't feel the same way." I pick her up and spin her around a few times. And as I am putting her back down on the ground I kiss her again abut this time with a whole lot more lust as I put my hand at the small of her back and she wraps her arms around my neck. And from there the kiss just gets deeper!