It's Always Been Him

Wake Up

(Liv's POV)
I wake up to the sound of a nurse in my room. She seems to be checking my vitals to make sure their okay when she sees that I'm awake. " Ma'am your discharge papers should be ready to fill out I can get them for you if you'd like me to?" I sorta shift to move out from underneath Melinda and answer "Yes please. Oh and can you also check and see if Elliott Stabler is awake? I would greatly appreciate it." She nods and turns to head out the door. As soon as she is out the door Mel wakes up. "Good morning Liv. How yah feeling?" I turn to face her as I say "Feeling better. One of the nurses told me that she would get my discharge papers for me. So hopefully I'll be out of this room here before to long!" And no longer than 3 minutes after I said that the same nurse came in with my discharge papers and told me "Here are your discharge papers. After you get them filled out just page me in here and you'll be ready to go. And uhh... Elliott Stabler is still not awake. They said that during the last surgery he failed on them 2 times but each time they got a steady heartbeat back. They said that he would be out for 2 more days at the least. I'm sorry darling." My eyes had started to burn at the sound of Elliott still not being awake. The only thing I think of is I need to be with him. I get my papers filled out, I thank Melinda for staying with me and talking with me before she left, I page the nurse in to get my papers, and head to Elliott's room. Before I walk in I decide to try to gather myself as much as possible. I try to force back the tear that have already made way down my face. As I walk in the reality of it all hits me like a brick wall and automatically I start sobbing as I try to speak. "Elliott..Elliott please wake up. Please come back to me because I need you so so much! I can't do this without you, I really really can't. Please baby...please wake up. I love you so so so much and it's killing me that your not with me right now. Please El....please find your way back to me..I'm begging you to not leave me...not to let go.. I love you!" I try to find the wall in search of stability but, with no luck, I fall to the ground. I can't help but just sit there and stare at him and the rise and fall of his chest as I continuously sob. After about 5 more minutes I stop crying and just sit there. It's almost like I completely lost myself and all I could do was breath.
{ 20 minutes later}
Cregan had been here, in El's room, with me for the past 10 minutes. We had very little conversation because neither of us knew what to say. I had already told him what was going on with El and I could see the tears as they began to form in his eyes. Elliott and I have been like his children since we first started working here and when I told him that Elliot would be in a coma for ,at the least, 2 days...he didn't take it well. But of course neither was I so I couldn't blame him. As Cregan gets up I begin to say something but stop myself before it comes out. "I'll see yah later Olivia. If Elliott wakes up before his 2 days then let me know please." I nod my head as I walk into his open arms for an embrace. As he pulls alway I say "Thank you Cergan!" And with that he walks out the door.
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{2 days later} (still Liv's POV) 6:45 a.m
The entire squad shows up to the hospital in hope that today Elliott will wake up. Even the 2 temporary detectives show up, Amanda Rollins and Nick Amaro. They seem to be super nice but I can feel Nick's eyes all over me (shuddering). It's super early and Cregan said that they would be able to stay most of the day since IAB took most of their cases. They had all brought in some sort of gift even though it wasn't really needed. Fin and Mel had brought in some flowers and balloons, Nick and Amanda had brought some chocolate chip cookies, Munch brought a giant stuffed teddy bear and a box of chocolates just cause he knew Elliott would laugh when he seen it, and Cregan told me that he would be paying for the stay. All of which made me feel so happy.

It was now around 12 p.m and there was conversations all throughout the room. We were all anxious for Elliott to wake. After about 20 minutes of talking everyone began to settle down as we ate our lunches. I was to anxious for Elliott to wake up so all I ate was a few bites of a turkey sandwich.

At around 2:45 the squad began to die down in excitement. All our hope was falling through the drain as we began waiting longer and longer. He was supposed to be up today and everyone expected him to, including me. I had my hopes up and what..for nothing? I promised myself that, even if he didn't wake up today, I wouldn't give up hope. It might begin to fall short but I would never lose it because I knew he would wake up sooner or later and when he did, I would again be complete.
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{7:30 p.m} (Liv's POV)
The only people left in the room was me, Cregan, Fin, and Mel. Nick, Amanda, and Munch had all left to go home to get some rest. I didn't blame them, they had woken up early to be here and were here most of the day. I had moved from being in the middle of the room to being right beside Elliott's bed and was holding his hand while laying my head on the edge of his bed. I had been laying like that for about 5 minutes when I thought I felt him twitch. I shot my head up and I know that it hadn't gone unnoticed by everyone left in the room. I watched him so intently that I'm sure there was sweat running down my face. As I started to lay my head back down he said my name. "Olivia?? Olivia is that you?!" I couldn't believe it! He was finally awake and now I could be complete again! "El...baby it's me! I'm here!" With that his ocean blue eyes looked dead into mine. And he pulled me into a tight hug. We stayed like that for about 15 minutes all the while I was crying. When I finally pulled away I didn't go far. I raised my head so I could kiss him on the lips and let it linger. When everyone in the room joined us for a hug, we stayed like that for a long while, none of us wanting to break the treasuring moment. When Cregan was the first to pull away everyone else stood back with him allowing Elliott some room to breathe.
"Elliott it's refreshing to see that your alive. We missed yah! All of us did especially Olivia. It was tough without you son!" Cregan said and everyone just nodded. "Cregan's right." Fin pipped in. "She didn't take it well at all. She ended up in a bed herself. She passed out from lack of oxygen to her lungs...she was hyperventilating when you went back into surgery this past time." Mel said. Elliott's eyes shot to me and he asked "Liv...is that true?! Baby I didn't mean scare you." My eyes drop to the floor in attempt for me to not see the concern in his eyes. I feel weak. "I wish it weren't true." I say almost so low I couldn't even here it myself. He motions for me to lay by him and kisses my temple as I lie down.
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(Elliott' POV) {10:30 p.m}
Everyone finally left the room about 10 minutes ago. We had small talk throughout the time they were there. When Liv began getting tired everyone left in hopes that she might finally get some good rest tonight. As she is lying by my side I kiss the sweet spot on her neck gaining an ear to ear grin from her. "You didn't change a bit!" She says as her lips crash on mine. We continued kissing intensively for about 15 minutes before air became a major issue. When we finally pulled away she laid her head on my chest and began to fall asleep. "Goodnight Olivia. I love you so so much baby and I want you to know that I did come back to you. I heard what you said and it helped me gain what I needed to be back with you!" She stares into my eyes with tears running down her face and she kissed me again then said "I love you too El! So so so very much! And I'm glad you came back to me baby, I need you! Goodnight!" With that she kissed me one last time before sleep claimed my Sleeping Beauty.