What's Behind The Fame (Jaythan Fan Fic)

Chapter 1

Nath's POV

I groaned internally as I watched Tom and Kelsey kiss on the couch. We were at a hotel for a gig that night. We were all gathered in Tom'a room to just hang but Tom and Kelsey kinda of forgot we we're here.

"Babe, want to go back to bed?" Nareesha asked Siva after it became true no one was going to stir up a conversation.

"Sure, I'll see you lads tomorrow." He said as they headed out leaving Max, Jay, and I to handle Tom and Kelsey.

It always got me mad at how Siva and Tom always had their girlfriends around. Don't get me wrong, I love Nareesha and Kelsey. They are the two most sweetest girls on the earth. I just wish I could have a relationship and be open to the world about it.

"I'm going to go back to my room." I said as I looked at the couple then back to Max and Jay.

"Okay, Nath. See you in the morning." Jay said as he leaned back onto the bed.

"Good night, mate." Max said before I waved a hand and left the room.

I headed back down the hall and towards my room. All the boys know why I couldn't have a relationship out in the open. I'm bisexual. The only people who know are the lads, my family, management, Nareesha, and Kelsey. Management isn't making me hid it but since I'm not in a relationship with a guy there's no need to tell. But even if I did get into a relationship with a man, then I'm pretty sure I still wouldn't be able to come out to the world. It just really bugs me. The boys get it, but I feel like Siva and Jay are more kinder about it. Now none of them tease me. Tom and Max get it and don't have a problem but I feel like I can talk only to Jay and Siva about it.

I get into my room and toss my shirt next to my suitcase with my pants. I crawl into my bed in just my boxers and set my phone on the table next to me. We're heading back to London tomorrow to do some more gigs. We'll be there for week then we we're going to France or somewhere. And of course the girls are touring with us.

I laid my hand back on the pillow as I closed my eyes. This week is going to be long.

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"Nath! Wake up!" I heard pounding on my door and I jumped out of bed to open it. Kev, our main body guard was standing there. "Get dressed boy, your the only one not ready!"

"Okay, okay!" I said and shut the door as I grabbed my suitcase and placed it on the bed. I grabbed a pair of jeans and a tee as I pulled them on. I slipped on my shoes and a snap back. I put my phone and wallet in my pocket and stuffed the rest of my things into my suitcase as I did a double check I had everything and left the room.

"Come on, you're going to make us late again."

"Sorry." I said as I pulled my suit case behind me, following him to the lift. Or as they call it hear in America, an elevator. I followed him through the lobby and out into the parking lot. He took my suitcase as I got into the van. All the boys, Nareesha, Kelsey, and Nano we're in there. Nano was our day to day manger. We traveled with him and he made most of our decisions.

"Nathan, don't be late next time." Nano said and I just nodded as I took my seat next to Max.

"What's wrong?" Max nudged me and I just shook my head. I was still thinking about not being to be open but it doesn't matter now. "You can tell me." I looked to him and shrugged and leaned closer.

"Just the usual stuff that gets me down." I said softly. He knew what I mean because I do talk to Maxx and Tom too, but like I said, they aren't my first choices.

"Hey, it's okay. Don't worry about it." He said before pulling away. I turned towards to look out the window. That's what he always says. He doesn't understand. Neither does Tom. They just tell me it'll be okay and don't worry. But it's not and I always will worry. Siva and Jay don't truly understand it, but they try and give me better answers than Max and Tom.

When we got to the airport we all filled out and grabbed out bags in hand as Nano lead us past the fans and into airport. Some fans were gathered in there and I went over to a young girl. "Hi." She said, smiling up at me.

"Hey, what's your name?"

"Hannah."

"Hannah? Well, Hannah, want a picture?" I asked looking at her camera in her hands. She nodded rapidly as I took the camera and bent down a bit as I took our picture. "There you go, love." I said as I handed her camera then pulled her in for a hug. I let go and waved at her as I gabbed my bag and went to catch up with the lads.

I love greeting fans but when they are all quiet and shy makes me feel awkward. I see all the time on twitter that they are excited and so happy to meet us but when we do they are just so quiet and hardly talk.

Once we all got on board I saw I was sitting next to Jay. I sat down on the isle seat and saw Kelsey and Tom we're on the other side of me. "So, excited to go back to London?" Jay asked me even though he knew the answer.

"Hell yeah, We haven't been home in a while so I'm glad we're getting to go back."

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"So, Nath, you alright?" Kelsey asked me after Tom and Jay fell asleep.

"Yeah." I said as I turned to look at her.

"You seem a little bummed out."

"Well a lot has been on my mind."

"Nath, you know you can tell me." I sighed, even though Tom doesn't really get it Kelsey, and Nareesha, have talked to me about my sexuality and they help me too.

"Just, I've been thinking about relationships lately." She grinned at me and I knew she got the wrong message.

"Why, have your eye on someone?"

"No, It's just if I did I wouldn't be able to tell the fans and that gets me upset. I don't like hiding things from the fans." Kelsey smiled softly at me.

"Just when the time comes, fight for it. Make sure he is worth it then fight for him. Fight for your love. Just do anything you can to be to be true to yourself."

"Thanks, Kels."

"Anytime, Lil Nath." I smiled as i turned myself so i was looking at the back of the seat infront of me. I pulled the blanket up closer to me as i leaned my head towards Jay. I slowly fell asleep as i stared at a sleeping Jay, just looking over his features.

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