I've fallen in love with my childhood bully

Chapter 6

(Lilly's pov)

*knock knock*

Who the hell is coming in my room at freaking 12:30 on the afternoon, dont they know I need my beauty sleep. Haha just kidding there isn't any beauty in me, "Mmm" I said putting the pillow over my head because of the sun streaming threw my blinds." Wake up Lydia." The thick Irish accent said.

Why the hell was Niall in my freaking room.

"Get out Niall!" I said opening my eyes.

"I just wanted to talk, why are you

mad at me?" He asked oh so instantly.

"Do you not remember what happened between 8th grade and the end of high school Niall?" I spat.

"Are you still mad about the joke I did to you..?"

"The joke that you kept making fun of me?!?" I screamed

"THAT WAS NO JOKE NIALL. I KNOW YOU AND YOUR POPULAR BITCHES LOVED TO DO THAT TO ME, I WANTED TO DIE BECAUSE OF ALL OF YOU!"

"Wait, you wanted to die?" He asked sounding like he actually cared.

"Yes! Every second I saw you I was horrified!"I said starting to cry.

"I only did it as a joke, I never wanted to hurt you." He said in a calming tone.

"YOU DIDN'T HURT ME. YOU FREAKING KILLED ME FOR FIVE HELLA LONG YEARS. I WAS FINE WITH WHAT I LOOKED LIKE TILL YOU STARTED TO CALL ME FAT AND UGLY AND PATHETIC. I STARVED MYSELF SO I COULD BE SKINNY, I CUT MYSELF NUMEROUS TIMES TO EASE THE PAIN AWAY. IT NEVER WENT AWAY! IT CAME BACK SO I KEPT CUTTING!!NIALL YOU RUINED MY WHOLE LIFE, ILL NEVER BE PRETTY. I HAVE HUNDREDS OF SCARS COVERING ME INTIRE

BODY." I yelled with tears streaming down my face. I pretty sure that i scared him , hell I scared myself.

I took off my pants and shirt to prove him. I took a glass of water from my nightstand and washed all the makeup off of my scars.

I showed him my stomach

My thighs

My Hips

My wrists.

"I did this to you.." Niall said quietly stepping back.

"YES YOU DID ALL OF THIS." I yelled pointing to my body.

Niall ran out of the room. I fell to the floor and started to bawl.

"Bayyyy!!" I shrieked.

"Hide my blades, flush them. All!" I yelled as she ran into my room.

"If I go near them, I won't stop," I said to her trying to catch my breath,

"I won't let him in again, I didn't think this would happen! It's my fault." Bay said from the bathroom,

"It's not, don't blame yourself." I told her.

"Niall ruined me..." I said before falling to sleep, on my annoyingly itchy floor.