bridges || a.i

chap 1

"it was fire at first. and she was hot, burning wild and I burned with her, us combined we could've burned down the whole damn world but we only blistered ourselves. she was oh god, so damn lovely. with one low came fifty highs but when fire gets low you can't suffocate it or it will burn out, and that's exactly what we did. one low came fifty highs but it was that one low that caused your fire in me to fade away, and it didnt take me long to notice the cold that was seeping in on us. I was supposed to keep you aflame but you were the one that let me burn out, but even though you don't love me anymore doesn't mean I'm not going to rebuild our flame, and I'll never give up until we burn the world to the ground."

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I still remember the first time I seen you. You stood there with this big ass smile and goofy laugh and I've seen you before, thought of you before, but not like the first time I seen you. I imagined us together, if you were one of them girls that liked dresses or loud music, what your family was like and what you did daily. I wanted to know every single thing about you and all I did was see you, there, with this big smile and radiating character.

I didnt know what was buried in you but I wanted to dig as far as I could. I wanted to discover parts of you that hadn't been touched before. I wanted to uproot the gold I knew lied within you. I knew plenty had to have tried, digging so recklessly they left holes that led nowhere but between her legs but I wanted to be different. I wanted to be the one that stayed.