-August-
Kris is gone. Kris is gone Kris is gone. Kris is gone.
I say that to myself everyday but it doesn't feel like the truth it's like i can still feel her here. Like she's still alive I know it's stupid it just feels right but i know it's not true. I hate that she had a closed casket funeral. I don't see why they would even let me see and I was with her.
It's been 5 months since she died and the kids miss her so much. Shit We miss her so much. I been in this depressed mode where mama been watching them for a while just until i get myself together.Today i was going to see my sister Angela in Atlanta for a week so I'm cool that. She said she got a friend named Apryl/April who just got out the hospital a few months back and lost her baby. I wonder why I still feel like Kris here.Maybe because she's watching over me and the kids....
-Kris/Apryl-
Okay so it's been a few months now and i still don't feel back to normal. For example last month Cj literally begged me to have sex with him. He said it might jog memory. Fuck no that didn't happen at all. All it did was make wonder why was i with him in the first place. His dick game from a 1-100 is a fucking 1 only because his dick aint super small but other than that he horrible at sex. He moan when I'm not moaning. We stayed in one spot the hole time. He doesn't know what I like during sex it was almost like we had never had sex before. So since then he been begging for more and guess what I say Hell Naw.
Once i made it out the hospital everybody started calling me Apryl. I asked Cj and he said i changed my name so it will be hard to find me or some shit.
I do think Apryl is a pretty name but I'm Kris and always will be.
I decided today i would go over my friend Angela house today just to try to figure out some more stuff. I don't know why but I feel incomplete. I feel like I'm not where I'm suppose to be.
I knocked on Angela door and she opened the door on my second knock.
Angela:"Hey Apryl I didn't know you was coming so early"
Me:"My bad is that cool"
Angela:"Yeah come in and cute outfit girl"
Me:"Well you know how i do"
I popped my invisible coler. Crazy because I didn't even have any thing on my shoulder.
Angela:"Oh my God don't be feeling yo self"
We laughed at eachother then we sat on the couch.
Angela:"Oh yeah my Big Brother here"
Me:"Cool but you got some green grapes"
Angela:"Gon head and get some fat ass don't eat all my damn grapes"
Me:"Whateva"
I went in the kitchen and started eating those grapes. Shit I love green grapes.
-August-
I walked downstairs and seen Angela sitting on the couch.
Me:"Yo you got some food to eat"
Angela:"Yeah in the kitchen but my friend in there so dont mess with her"
Me:"Whateva"
Once I walked in the kitchen i saw a girl with some braids in her head and a sexy outfit on that worked ha body right. Ha booty looked just like Kris's. She had on some sandals so i could see her ankles and on her right ankle August. The same tattoo Kris got after she had Aj. Is this Kris? Nahh Aug don't get paranoid this ain't Kris. Mayne Fuck my head right now i got to see for myself.
Me:"Kris?"
She turned around quick and that's when i saw my beybeh. She back how the fuck this happen.
Kris:Uhh im Apryl
Kris head-Damn he fine but he probably somebody who looking for me from Nola...
Me:"No i know my girl and babymama from anywhere quit playing Kris"
Kris head-Babymama i don't even have kids Cj told me that already
Kris:"Okay my name was Kris but what kids i don't have no kids"
Me:"yes you have 2 Aj and Asia"
Kris:"I'm sorry but the only baby i had was the one i just lost 5 months ago"
Me:"So we lost our baby and don't know who I am"
She shook her head no.
Kris:"what you mean your baby it was my husband's baby"
Me:"Husband who the fuck is yo husband Kris"
Kris:"Cj and if you knew me you a know that"
Me:"Did you just say Cj"
She nodded her head yes.
Me:"FUCK NO KRISTEN YOU AIN'T MARRIED TO NO DAMN CJ YOU WANT TO KILL THE FUCK OUT THAT NIGGA AFTER YOU FOUND OUT WHAT HE DID TO KELLY AND NOW Y'ALL MARRIED FUCK TYPE OF SHIT IS DAT"
Kris:"Kelly what you mean i thought she was dead"
Me:"well it look like Cj lied to yo ass"
Kris:"okay if so who are you too me"
Me:"I'm the father of yo kids, yo bestfriend, yo boyfriend, and future husband"
Kris:"You sure"
Me:"Ight then watched this"
I leaned in close to her and put all my love pain and passion i have for her into the kiss. She started kissing back nit long after. I soon broke free from the kiss. And looked at her waiting for her to say something.
-Kris-
When August kissed me i started remembering everything and mean everything even the way me and August really met. I can't believe i forgot my kids. No I'm done Cj did all this shit and lied and used me. He told me my sisters was fuckin dead. He made my kids go mother less. I'm done no feelings attached I'm about to kill him with no damn mercy and that's on my kids life.
Me:"August we got to kill him and i mean now he's fucking up our life fuck all that past shit because if that really matter he wouldn't have done us like that"
August:"ight I'm about to call everybody and tell them everything"
Me:"Okay I love you August"
August:"I love you too Beybeh"
He gave me 3 pecks on the lips then got on his phone.
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