stay up all night and
feel the eyes burn in weariness
the dread of next day approaching
or the pain at the back of the pupils
can never amount to that
tremendous, heart wrenching,
sick and tiring tragic stories you
engrave in my body
i look into the mirror and
the myriad of shades of blue and black and grey and purple
the blotches scare me weak
i fear of you
the same way as you do,
yourself
so do i sleep with these
screaming thoughts or
let the eyes hurt and bleed and
tear me apart
?!
i chose to close my eyes
eyelids fluttered gently,
down
and then it didn't hurt again.
i dreamt about cloudy days and
starry nights
before you came to rattle me
awake
shake my arms
(the touch kills me inside out)
the look in your anxious eyes terrifies me
dreams don't last
fear does
you do.
