Chanyeol's Letters. (EXO Fanfiction)

First letter.

January 15th 2016

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To my beloved ex.

How have you been? Have you been eating well? I've heard so many good things about you. You're becoming big in japan...see your dream is coming true. I guess you've been too busy to reply to my texts, emails and phone calls for the past 7 months...

You should know, I'm a mess. 

A complete mess.

There's an ice box where my heart use to be...you left with my heart 7 months ago and nothing has been the same. I can't wake up and smile, i just dread the day coming towards me. I've become so isolated from the world, i barely leave my room. I only go out when i have to, meaning practice and shows.

Do you know how hard it is to hold a fake smile in front of a camera? To pretend I'm not suffering with depression? Having the guys tell me "There will be other girls" or "Chaneyol, everything will work out." and here i am 7 months later, still on anti- depressants, still crying every night, still regretting waking up in the morning.

I guess you don't know because I see you smile on every billboard, every advertisement, every screen smiling without an issue. You've already had 2 boyfriends since you left... am i really that easy to forget? Did 3 years with me just get wiped from your memory? Did i really mean that little to you?

But there i go again talking about my feelings...

I know what I did was inimical. I don't know what came over me...So I'll start sending these letters and hope for the best, or at least a reply.

I miss you...

Please come home...

Love, your ex-fiancé.

Park Chan-yeol.