Life As We Know It

Meant to be or Fated destruction

Authors note: the picture is of a coral rose. Which means Desire.

Spring break. Time really flew by this year, I'm going to be a sophomore soon. I already feel like my mindset has changed about life and.....love. At least I think it's love. I've never experienced it before, does it happen this fast? Even if the person is practically a stranger? I wish I could tell Cassie, but I can't. She'd be totally weirded out. Hell if she said something like this to me I'd be in shock at her too.
He sent me a letter the other day. He invited me to his house today. Very old fashioned, I mean who even writes letters anymore. It does feel kind of romantic though. So if I show up will it only be the two of us, all alone? I mean it's not like we haven't been alone before. It's just never been very long. I want to tell him how I feel and see how he feels. I don't want one-sided feelings, but I feel like its too early to say anything either. Here I am over thinking again.
"Hey Thea, what're you up to today?" Asked Cassie coming into my room. "I might go out for a bit, I have something I have to do" I didn't exactly lie. "Oh bummer, I was gonna see if you wanted to hang out like old times. We haven't done that for awhile. I'm sorry I've been in a lovey dovey world over here" she said sitting next to me. I understand that, I feel like I'm that way too. Is what I wanted to say. "I really do miss you Cass..." I said hugging her. "Look at you getting emotional over here, that never happens. Are you sick or something?" She smirked hugging me back. We giggled about it for a minute. "Are you doing anything tomorrow?" I asked. "Not till later, a group of us are going to have a bonfire at the beach. You should come if you can!" She replied looking excited hoping I'd say yes. I don't generally like groups of people, especially kids my age. "Can I get back to you on that?" I smirked. Her smile fell down a little, but she tried to fake it, "yeah you have my number."

Here I am now, sitting on the metro. Looking out the window. It's a 20 minute train ride and then a 10 minute walk. The old me would've never done this for a guy. A part of me was telling me to go back home, but that was a very small part.
I get to the gates of his home, I just stand there for a minute and then start walking again. Then I saw him at his front door waiting for me. Like he knew I was coming. "Good afternoon Thea" he said smiling a little. "Thanks for inviting me" I replied as we walked inside.
"So what are we planning to do today?" I asked. We were walking to the back of the house, then we were outside again. "Hopefully your hungry" he said. I couldn't believe what I was seeing. He had set up a romantic lunch date for us. There was a cute little table with coral roses on it. There was even a server standing by waiting for us to sit down. He pulled the chair out for me even! The server brought us over some plates that had this tin bowl on top of it. I opened it, it was a very big steak. This seems more like a dinner then a lunch. I bit into it, it had amazing taste and flavor. "This is really good" I thanked him. I had to concentrate on eating slow so I dont look sloppy, I usually just eat however at home but I couldn't let him see me like that yet. "It's my pleasure" he replied then he starting eating his too.
Once we were done eating he asked if I wanted to take a walk, which was probably good since I ate so much. We walked down the steps, there was a huge fountain in front of us. Angel sculptures with water pouring out of their hands. It was really beautiful. "I want you to see something" he said grabbing my hand and took me over to these tall hedges. "What's this?" I asked before walking in the opening of the hedges. "It's a maze, have you ever been in one?" He said. "No I've heard of them though. Aren't they supposed to be hard to get out of?" I questioned. "Not if your with me" he smirked and then we went in.
There were random coral roses in some of the hedges, I brushed my fingers against them as we were walking past. So soft, so delicate. Eventually we reached this bigger area where there we 3 different ways you could go. There was a stone bench in the middle, we sat down on it to take a small break. "What do you think of it so far" he asked staring into my eyes. I could feel myself getting nervous, my heart beating faster. "It's very mysterious but beautiful.....kind of like you" I replied. He leaned in and got so close to my face, I closed my eyes. He brushed a piece of hair out of my face and then laid his hand on my cheek. I could practically feel his lips, was he going to finally kiss me? Should I just take the leap and kiss him? And then it happened he kissed me softly, and then again. He got passionate with the kisses and started to use his tongue. It surprised me and I didn't really know what to do back. It was my first kiss. I just followed his movements. Our bodies got closer, I was feeling hot. Felt like the sun was right on me. Then lightly he pulled away and rested his forehead on mine. I didn't open my eyes yet, I wanted to memorize this moment, this feeling. I think he was doing the same. Then he whispered, "which way do you want to go? It's your decision." Was this a test? What if I picked the wrong way?
I opened my eyes and I knew exactly where to go, "That way" I pointed. We stood up and starting walking again, still holding hands. We finally got to the end of the maze, I felt pretty proud of myself. We headed back inside and then he took me to a door in the middle of the hall. "What's in there?" I asked. "It's my secret" he told me without looking at me. "Secret?" I questioned. He breathed in, "If I show you what's behind this door, there's no going back. Are you sure you want to know?" Saying it like that got me a little scared and worried. I somehow trusted him even though I still barely knew him. Am I ready for this? I put my hand on the doorknob and before turning it I looked at him and said, "I trust you." He smiled but it didn't seem happy, I think he was worried about how I'd react. I needed to be strong. I opened the door.
It was dark, I could barely see the stairs, but I was holding his hand and he was leading the way. The lights flickered a lot, why didn't he get them fixed. It looked like a regular basement with old dusty things you put away and forget about. He went over to the breaker box and turned flicked up a certain one, i couldn't tell which. All of the sudden, a space in the wall in front of me started going up. I was amazed, it didn't even look like there would be a secret compartment down here. There were no lights at all. Pitch black. I held onto Adrian as we went forward into the darkness.
Finally I saw a little bit of light in front of us, it was faint. Looked like torches hanging on the walls. Then we got closer and that's when I saw it. A black coffin. I just stared at it. Was his secret that he killed someone? "Your probably assuming I killed someone, or maybe someone is alive in here?" He said walking over to it alone. He lightly brushed his fingers across the edge of the coffin, it definitely meant something to him. "Remember when I told you there was an evil inside of me?" He asked turning to face me. "..yes" I mustered to say. "I'm not who you think, I'm not what you think. You'll probably hate me or choose to disbelieve" he said looking so calm. I felt like I knew what he was talking about, but how could this be real? "Your not the one that goes into that coffin are you?" I asked. I couldn't believe I said that. Those are just fairy tales and fantasy's. "Yes" he replied. "But your skin doesn't burn in the sun, you even ate real food with me" I said. "Well not everything you've read is true" he said slowly walking over to me. I must be dreaming, this whole day was a dream right? I'm gonna wake up soon and I've probably never even met him. "Are you a vampire?" My last question to him. I want him to say no, that he was only kidding, he was just teasing me. "Yes" he said, now right in front of me. He put his hands on the cheeks of my face and lifted my head slightly. "Are you afraid of me now?" He asked. He seemed so sad, like he knew I wanted to run. I couldn't run even if I wanted to, I felt parallelized. "I don't know......you've never hurt me" I answered. It was the truth though. Someone I barely know, but I have such a strong connection with. He smiled his sad smile again, "I wish for you to stay by my side, but I won't force you too." I wonder if everyone in the past had left him. I mean he is all alone in this big house. Only close family he had died. How did he become this way? Before I could think of a million more questions I wanted to ask him, he suddenly kissed me. And then all of those questions got pushed away to the back of my mind. I kissed him back. We looked back into each other eyes and kissed again, so passionately. So there I was kissing him in his creepy dark basement, in front of his coffin.

That's when I realized, I didn't care what he was. I just wanted to be with him.