♔◁BTS IDEAL TYPE▷♚

I'M JUST AN INTERNATIONAL FANGIRL

Look at his picture everyday , anytime , anywhere make me smile. Watching for his Music Videos every year make me feel crazy. His songs give me energy and spirit to do something. Besides that, i really like to learn their mother tongue than studying my education books. Why? Is it wrong to do that? At least i know my mother tongue right?

Sometimes i saw his picture with others fan. "She/He is so lucky!" that's my first word after seeing that picture. Sometimes i feel jealous of them. Look at them. They have everything , not like me. Why can't I meet him?

I loved a boy

he didn't know

but i couldn't

let him go

i screamed his name

he didn't hear

i tried again

once every year

i cried once more

as he stood a bowed

because i was just another girl

in the crowd.

I am not a citizen of their country. He is 78345328942759786 Kilometers from me. I have no money. I'm still young. What can i do except be a international fangirl.

In my eyes he is everything but , in their eyes i'm just another fan in crowd or maybe they didn't know that i'm exist. It is very unfair! Why the other people can meet them but not me? Am I a ghost? i really wish that i can see or meet him in real life just for once. I really want to make an eye contact with him. 

I really like when you are holding my hands but , i just realize that it just a dream. Did you know what things are in my brain now? There are just 2% phone numbers , 3% names , 5% school knowledge and 90% fangirl- related things.

Why did i have to choose the most popular band in the world to fall in love with? Sometimes there are some haters that like to said like this "Why you love him? he will never love you back". And i'm like "Why are you breathing? you gonna die anyway". Please haters , you don't know anything about fangirling so shut up your big mouth before i do it for you.

My friends always said that i'm a greedy person. Sorry dude , that's not my style. What do you mean by greedy huh? I always sharing my bias with others 5472529308352528203624 fans. Am I still greedy?

I know what the haters said is true but remember this even though i will always be just another fangirl in the sea of millions , I shall support you until the end.