5 Seconds of Summer BSM

When You're Gonna Die And He Doesn't Care (Calum)

CALUM (18) : LEUKEMIA

"Hi everyone. My name is (Y/N) Hood. I'm just a regular girl who won't live long. I have this disease called leukemia. I have this disease since when I was around 11.. It's when the bone marrow and other blood-forming organs produce increased numbers of immature or abnormal leukocytes." You explained while recording this in your camera.

"As you can see..." You lifted up your shirt showing your stomach filled with bruises.

"My body has bruises. Too many to count." You look at the camera again.

"I usually get nose bleeds. Believe me it causes a huge mess. I often get scolded by my big brother, Calum when it happens..." You sighed.

"(Y/N)! It's dinner time!" Mali, your big sister, yelled.

"I guess that's all for today. I gotta go, bye!" You said hurriedly and turn off your camera.

You headed downstairs and plopped yourself on an unoccupied chair. You saw Mali and Calum seated just next to you, munching on their food. You look at the dish that was placed in front of you. You played with the food and sometimes placing them inside your mouth little by little.

"Hurry up and just damn eat already!" Calum exclaimed.

"Calum, don't rush her." Mali said sternly.

"But she won't eat! She eats so little every single day, just look at her!" Calum pointed at your skinny body.

"She's perfectly normal!" Mali replied to her little brother.

"I lost my appetite..." You said and went up to your room.

When you arrive at your room, you could hear Calum and Mali arguing about you. You just don't know why Calum really despise you sometimes. You decided to sleep since tiredness was another side effect of your disease.

~THE NEXT MORNING~

"Wake up, brat!" Calum shouted.

You sprang up and groaned at the sunlight shining directly at your eyes. You wipe your eyes and stretch your arms. You then stifle a yawn and fix your hair.

"What do you want?" You asked your big brother.

"It's nearly Christmas. Wee need to decorate the house!" Calum rolled his eyes clearly annoyed.

"Okay." You smiled putting on a Christmas spirit.

You went to the bathroom and did your usual daily morning routine. Once you were done, you pick out suitable outfits to wear for the day. Soon, you were done, you finally went down to see that Mali and Calum were decorating the house.

"So, what can I do to help?" You asked.

"How about baking cookies?" Mali suggested nicely.

"Do not burn down the kitchen." Calum grimly said while glaring.

You quickly ran to the kitchen and start preparing ingredients for cookies. While baking them, you couldn't help but thought of Calum, the reason he hates you, act so cold toward you.

You grab cookie cutters and cut the dough into the molded shape. You place all of them in the tray and place it in the oven.

You suddenly felt something dripping out of your nose. You realize you were having nose bleed. You quickly ran to the bathroom and clean the blood stains from your face and hold your nose from letting more blood dripping down.

Mali and Calum decided to check on you and when they saw you there with a nosebleed...

Calum's eyes held a glare, and Mali's face showed full concern.

"Are you okay?" Mali asked worriedly and help you clean the mess.

"Perfectly fine..." You whispered softly.

"What did I tell you about having nose bleeds?!" Calum yelled with rage.

"Calum, she can't control when will she have nose bleed." Mali snapped.

"Go to your room now (Y/N), I don't want to see your face!" Calum ordered and pointed upstairs.

At that point, you ran up to your room and start sobbing. You can't handle the pain anymore. Every single day you're always scolded by Calum. What did you even do to make him so angry?!

You knew that the more angrier you get, the lesser your life span will be. But for now, you didn't care if you die. Maybe that way, Calum would be so happy without you. You won't cause so much trouble for Mali either.

You decided to shoot one more video before you go to bed. Besides, tomorrow is 25th of December.

"I'm back. So, tomorrow is Christmas, and I was helping my so called brother and my sister to help for Christmas preparation. I was asked to bake cookies, I gladly accepted the job." You said.

"But then, I had a nosebleed. If you watch most of my videos, I have said it before that when I had nose bleeds, Calum would get mad. Well guess what? He sent me to my room now. That's a first... I'm just so frustrated! Why does he hates me so much?! What have I even done wrong that makes him so angry?!" You shouted at the camera.

You suddenly felt yourself very tired. So you decided to end the video,

"I'm feeling very tired now. I'm gonna end this video right here. I'm just saying this in case... Thank you Mali for taking care of me during 7 years of miserableness. Thank you Calum for being my big brother. Thank you for everything. And one last thing..."

"When I'm gone, I don't want anyone to be sad that I'm gone okay? Well, that's it. Bye." You said and turn off the camera.

~~~

"Why are you always angry when something happens to (Y/N)?!" Mali scolded Calum.

"I just don't like her acting that way!" Calum shouted.

"She has leukemia! What were you expecting?! She can't control whatever happens to her you know?! She can die any moment!" Mali exclaimed.

Calum's eyes softened. He remembered all the hard times he had given to his own little sister.

"I'm a bad big brother, isn't it?" Calum realized.

"You are, but you wouldn't be that bad anymore if you apologize." Mali smiled.

"Okay." Calum said and walked to your room.

~~~

When he arrive at your room, he saw you sleeping on your bed. Though you look a lot paler then usual but he payed no mind to that.

"Hey (Y/N), it's me Calum. I came here to apologize for what I've did. I have been the worst brother ever. And I'm going to make it up to you, starting from tomorrow I'm going to be a better person, a better brother. A brother that you always wanted." Calum hold your hand.

You manage to open one of your eyes and let a small single drop of water to slide out of your eyes. Then your eyes totally closed and snap shut. You smiled one last time and fall into a deep sleep.

~THE NEXT DAY~

Mali and Calum turned on the camera that you usually use to take a video of your diary entries.

Mali nudged Calum and ask him to proceed what he was going to do.

"Today, on 25th December, 2015... is the death of our little sister, (Y/N) Hood. She passed away at 12:00 AM. She died in her sleep when I came to apologize for how I act. I hope whatever I said last night is able to let her forgive me. I'm full of regret and shame because of how I act towards her. She doesn't deserve the pain I caused. She's gone through enough." Calum cried in Mali's shoulder.

"Thank you, (Y/N) for being in our life. You are our hope and the light in the dark. We are really grateful to have a sister like you. We will see you soon. One day..."

Calum and Mali smiled then turned the camera off.