There are so many times that I don't know what I'm feeling- like right now. And I know that I feel something. I feel a lot of things about so many different things, situations and people. Things that happened that shouldn't have. Things that I regret, because the result is only hurt. Hurt that I caused myself. Things that I did to try to make myself happier and to make my life better, these things amount to disappointment and hurt. When I think of all this I.... just do not know what to do to make things better. Where to begin? If I can even fix anything .... I tried to make -I did make myself completely vulnerable yet again and I am still suffering the consequences. Why do I torture myself? Nothing should be like this. How can people act like they do? So heartless.... so self-righteous .... their heads-everyone of them stuck so entirely far up their own ass they can't see anymore, they can't see what they're doing to others and if they can, they don't give a damn. We are not promised our dreams or everything we want. But nothing will stop me from trying. Nothing and no one.
