Black

I think sometimes I did this to myself. I sit on my bed and wonder, staring at my white walls, wishing my sorrow would end. My heart sinks as I'm overcome with the lies you told, and I can't stop thinking about what used to be. This makes me realize... Love is like a roller coaster, at times it is exiting and causes butterflies in your stomach, but it can also be the skin-crawling fear you can't seem to escape. My heart had skipped a beat every time you looked at me, but now those daring hazel eyes will never meet mine again. I can't help but wonder, what happened? Was I blind enough to walk into a trap, or was it you who took the piece of my heart and soul that I will never get back? As I sit there in my room, memories of our soft touch and sweet words come back to me. I wish it hasn't ended, but I didn't have a choice. You don't understand, but I didn't dare damage what you thought of me any more than I had to. I noticed the sun had begun to set outside my bedroom window, as if to tell me today may be ending, but tomorrow is still to come. My room turns to black as the sun disappears, and I can't help but hope the same doesn't happen to my heart, because the light of my world is gone. Life is a mountain range. There are some high points, but just as many low points. Tap, tap, tap... My mom's footsteps stop in front of my room, and I quickly get under my comforter and act like I'm asleep. She peers into my room then leaves, ad I keep my eyes closed until I slip into a secret world of black.