Another "Fan?"

Chapter 1: late night

I got home from school today at 5pm. Yes I did get myself a detention but who wants to be in classes that 'teach' you things you already know yet be in school yet alone. But it's Dolan twins Tuesday, their videos always bring a smile to my face I mean, they're the reason behind my smile.

*buzz buzz*
I get a notification

@GraysonDolan: I'm confused😓

Great what have haters been chucking at him and his twin Ethan This time, who's face so I have to punch... Great this isn't a pleasant way to top of my mood.

"(Y/N) DINNERS SERVED!"
Mum shouts from downstairs, I can't be bothered moving I just want to wrap myself up like a burrito and stare into blankness but I don't want to keep her waiting or I will have to do the dishes and catch up on everything I've missed.

I walk downstairs and see that my mum cooked pizza, nothing is better then a home cooked meal which is amazing and gives of an amazing aroma that fills up the room with happiness.

"MMMM yum!"
I say to my mum while sniffing the air, I wonder how long I have to wait till I stuff my face like a pig.

"So how's school treating you?"
She says while handing me a plate with a piece of pizza on it

"Oh great, detention after detention with my favourite teacher!"
I explain to her in the most sarcastic tone possible and walking to the table

"What's wrong this time? Friends or boys who don't know you exist"

Great she's onto my feelings, I have to keep my emotions to myself so I don't have to answer questions I don't want to answer.
But she keeps staring at me and raises her eye brow...

"Ugh it's just drama on Twitter?"

"Because the boys?"

"BecauSe of Haters.."
Well at least i think haters, but most likely probably girl problems or something. Man I wish I was just there with him to cuddle with him, look into His eyes and smile at each other god My freaking heart hurts...

"Oh don't worry about them! Education is better, you don't need to stress over two teenage boys that you will never meet silly"

"Thanks for reminding me"
I start to feel my eyes fog up, and I lose my appetite, this is why I don't want to bother with my family about them. They will just put me down everytime, I'm craving a hug from the boys that are keeping me here. I need them more then ever

I run upstairs into my room and lock my door, bawling my eyes out but stay quite because I don't want my mum to know I'm crying.. I begin to start pacing back and force around my room with my hands on my head, I look into the Mirror. I stand there and look at My eyes, they are red and puffy from crying. who could ever love a monster like this, who am I to think I could actually meet them? They will never notice me... So many negative thoughts, I can't handle this and start to feel dizzy

Before I knew it I collapse

-the next morning-
I wake up on the floor with a swore neck and back, I pick myself up and message my neck
"At least she didn't find out"

I soon blast my music up while getting dressed. My teeth are now brushed and I chuck my hair into a cute messy bun, I don't know why but I feel like today is going to be a good day. What's there to loose? I mean I already lost tears so I'm practically out of stock.

"Good Morning sweetie, how was your sleep last night?"

"Great"
I say while getting and apple and walking out to the door.

"Hun I can't drop you off at school, your going to have to get a bus. I've got to be at work"

"Okay mum, have a good day"
I walk to the bus station and see a tweet from Grayson.

@GraysonDolan: I think she's the one...

....Well they're lucky, congratulations to them
I smile and hop onto the bus, I don't know why but there's a feeling his talking about me but it literally could be anyone And besides I live in Australia and his in America/ L.A  AND he doesn't even follow me... Tragic

Wow, That thought let me down but I'm in love with him and I can't give up too easily