You and Me and The Lighthouse

Chapter 1 - The New School

"This should be better," I thought as my car was approaching the school. A cold white building, thousands of kids entering, strangers to the face and to the soul, wondering who I'll be with. "This is a new beginning," I said to myself as my hands were shaking, I hope my brother didn't notice. I could see in his face, I knew Kristos was nervous too.

We just moved to Maine over the summer. Our mother died a year ago, and our dad just got remarried last month. I don't know how he could move on so fast. We came here because this is where my stepmom and stepsister live. I feel like Maine is just so different to the busy Big Apple, I don't know if I'll ever get used to it. My brother and I are very close, especially after our mother's passing, it always felt like we only had each other. Our dad was everywhere and nowhere, he was up and down, but I guess now he has found his everlasting up.

As we pull over at the school's parking Kristos says to me, "If anything goes wrong I'll be always on the fourth floor, so just come by me if anything happen," I simply answer, "Everything is going to be okay, okay?" I grin. "Okay," he says with a smile on his face.

Kristos and I decided that we didn't want to go to the same Catholic Academy where our stepsister goes to, we wanted to getaway from the awkwardness. So we chose to go to Bridget High Private School, it's a good school but I'm just not used to it yet.

Walking through the hallways, everyone knew each other, I felt so alone. I got to my locker, empty, doesn't surprise me. I just felt so strange standing in that hallway observing every little detail. I wonder what was Kristos doing one floor above me, is he feeling the same thing, I doubt that, he's always been the one that's better at socializing.

From first through fifth period wasn't surprising, I only sat in class and didn't talk. But lunch, that's a whole different story. I walked to the cafeteria, got my food from the lunch lady, I looked around, and I felt so out of place, I couldn't even spot Kristos anywhere. I decided to just eat on the bleachers while watching the track team. I sat there alone, I've never felt so homesick, even though I'm in a town that I'm supposed to call "Home". I sat there 'til the bell rang, I had no appetite to finish my food.

I survived the two last periods, I couldn't wait to go home, even though I wasn't used to the house yet, at least I can get away from this hell. I walked out of the cold white building, thinking Kristos would be outside too, but he wasn't. I waited for about fifteen minutes before I decided to go in. I walked, I went to his floor, but he wasn't in any of his classes. So I went down to go to the bleachers, he was probably there doing something very unexpected because that's how he is. I saw him sitting there, with a girl, I recognized her face but I didn't know who she was. Something about seeing him with that girl made me feel the feeling I felt when my dad got married, it was like I was happy for him but at the same time alone and left out. I didn't want to disturb him so I just texted him that I was already on the way home. I think he saw me walk out, I didn't want to look back because if I did it would turn into a whole new different problem, but I did. His face seemed like a mixture of "I'm sorry" and "I can explain". We were so close, how could he keep this away from me. I don't want to see him. I don't want to talk to him.