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Confession of a Miefer Fangirl

"The human heart is made from the only substance in the universe that can become stronger, after it's been broken."
- I wrote this for you

Closet's Adieu/ author's note got me thinking a lot of things. I reminisce about the things that had happened these past 8 months since Miefer have broken up.

When the rappler article of Miefer being on a break came out it was just few days till my last day of work, I passed my resignation a month prior to that. What a coincidence right? So the first few weeks of them broken up I was broken as well, I'm out of work, confused of where I'm going with my life plus heart broken from Miefer. I never thought i could be this emotionally invested to them. I even make fun of some fangirls before who cry over their idols, in my head i thought how pathetic they are and that they should get a life! Never thought i could be one of them one day. 😅

That time I uninstalled my twitter and Instagram, I can't hear any news about them coz it just makes me more miserable. I stopped reading wattpad stories about them as well, I totally cut them off of my life. I guess I needed that at that time to help me cope up with the pain. I cant even go out of the house, sit silently at a coffee shop, ride a car or walk alone in the street and stare blankly coz it scares me to only think about them and the what ifs and could have beens. I need to always occupy myself of something, may it be, binge watching a series, a movie, or YouTube videos, anything that can keep my mind off of them.

But through time I started going out with my friends more, learned a new hobby and travelled. Little by little I started to find happiness on things other than Miefer. I started using twitter again, news about A and K doesn't bother me that much anymore and since I started writing here on wattpad, long queues, waiting and silence doesn't bother me much as before, instead I like it even better since I can have the time to write and formulate stories in my head.

A lot of things have change within that 8 months, I might sound really pathetic and miserable but I was and still is to some degree to be honest. Haha. 😅 But I can confidently say I'm better now than yesterday.

Sometimes I think that the past can be only be bitter sweet, the present is still hard to swallow but we can always have the future, it's the only thing I can cling on. That's the main reason why I started writing this story, it's for the hope of a better future, of believing in the infinite possibilities of the future. And if that's the one thing that can make me happy now then so be it, nothing to be ashamed of or apoligize... It is what it is. 😁

My heart was broken but it only got stronger. I'm writing this story (One Day) mainly for my own sanity but I can't deny the happiness that you gave me - all of you who read this story, all of the miefer fans out there. Thank you for support and love! Till next update!

Sorry kung masyadong emo to... I just really have to let this all out and I'm just really emotional for my own good. 😁

Share you stories as well! How have you been these past 8 months? Naka-move on na ba kayo? Hehe. Madami nga yata Jemik shipper na. Hehe. Honestly I tried reading a Jemik fanfic pero di ko talaga kaya! Miefer forever talaga ako. ✌

Thank you for reading! 😘

Labyu Miefs! 💚💙