A night to remember

Can I hold on?

I was filled with joy  nothing could change that....or maybe something could?

I began to realise I couldn't touch him..hold him...kiss him I couldn't take it it was killing me I needed to just touch him once again...I needed out of this hell I then sat on the floor as my legs couldn't hold me but Calum couldn't see only Michael

Michael's face grew with concern and came over to comfort me " Michael " I said tears falling down my face " Michael I can't take this anymore I don't wanna be like this " Michael's face began to drop when he understood what I was saying 

" Calum" Michael stood up 

" yea " Calum questioned 

" look she can't take this anymore I think she's ready to give up " 

" no she can't not now not ever " Calum stood from his chair to face Michael 

" where is she " he asked 

Michael pointed towards me. Calum looked confused but then walked over and sat next to me 

" listen you.....you " he paused holding back tears " you are not giving up you understand me? Ok we are gunna get through this I promise " he put his hand up and made the rock sign 

Flashback-

" Calum I can't do this anymore no one likes me I can't get over the pain " I said with tears falling down my face

Calum was sat on the bed directly next to me " hey you listen to me. " I turned to him " look your a beautiful person and anyone who can't see that isn't worth it you are everything to alot of people don't ever give up you hear me...ever " I smiled and hugged him and we cuddled on my bed him wrapping his arms around me so tight he played rock music in the background and we just cuddled he then put his hand up in the rock sign ...I did the same and put mine against his

" this is ours ok?" He smiled 

I smiled back unable to hold it " ok " 

End of flashback -

I snapped out of my mind 

I then put my hand in the sign and put mine against his 

" this is ours....ok?" He smiled at me with his eyes all puffy 

" ok " I said crying and I hugged him and even though he couldn't feel anything and I couldn't really feel anything either I knew he knew what I was doing and he had a big smile on his face 

Calum spoke again 

" no one can take you away from me..that's a promise "