What Hurts the Most

    'Be still, sad heart, and cease repining; Behind the clouds the sun is shining; Thy fate is the common fate of all, Into each life some rain must fall, Some days must be dark and dreary.' -Henry Wadsworth. Ah, the irony. This is my all time favorite quote; only its also the story of my life. Here, let me explain.

     I love to watch shows where the main character is pining over a guy she can't have, and is  emotionally in pain. I know, call me a freak, but whatever. Kinda like the whole MerDer thing at the beginning of Grey's Anatomy. Anyways, I would look at my life and see that it was nowhere near as bad as them, until I met Austin.

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     "Hey, Sage. Sage? What are you looking at? Sage!" Bailey finally caught my attention.

     "You see that guy over there? With the long brown hair and lip ring?" I asked, moving my eyes toward him again. I had been noticing him the past couple days and knew if I brought it up to Bailey, she would do all the work for me.

     She nodded. "Elijah? I think thats his name. Why? Oh my gosh, do you like him?"

     "I never said that! But, could you find out his name for sure? Because everyone knows you love to do that kind of stuff. He looks kind of like Nick, and hangs around him. I hope they aren't brothers." Nick was a guy I liked about a month ago, but never got the courage to talk to.

     "I'll go find out now, but unless you want him to know I'm doing it for you, you might want to get on your bus." I smiled, thanked her, and ran off to my bus.

     I had just gotten out of band, and came directly outside to see him and and wait with Bailey. Usually Alyssa and Chelsy are there too, but they had already gotten on their buses. I knew I couldn't tell them about this Elijah guy until I started talking to him, if I even do. Plus, he was a little out of my usual pick in guys. He wears Baja hoodies, has shoulder length brown hair, a lip ring, and I'm 99% sure he smokes pot. So needless to say, if I told them, they would flip out. Anytime I needed something done for me, or the honest truth about an outfit or something, I went to Bailey.

     We had a love/hate relationship. She would do something that I would be eternally grateful for, and then something that needed to happen and I was just to chicken to do it, causing me to hate her. Some things are unforgivable, but I always forgive her anyway.

     The next morning, I decided to look extra cute, in case I talked to Elijah. I did my hair as usual, scrunching it in its natural chocolate brown kinky curls. Next I put on a black, tight shirt, and my favorite jeans, that were just a bit too long (I'm only 4' 11".) and my bright red converse. I did my make up smokey, with a dark green over my dark brown eyes.

     When I got to school, I went into the bandroom like I always do to wait for the bell to ring. "Hey, what did you find out?" I asked when Bailey walked toward me.

     "Okay, so his name isn't Elijah, its Austin, Austin Caudill. And he is not Nick's brother, so you're good. Oh, and I got his number for you." Ah, the love part of the relationship. "Oh, and I mentioned your name. And, gave him your number and said he should text you." Ugh, the hate part of the relationship.

     "What the hell?! Why would you do that?" A couple people around us turned to stare. "Follow me." I led us into the percussion room, where we could talk about it in private. 

      "Calm down. All I said was 'Hey, you know my friend, Sage? Well you should text her.' He said he knew who you were and even asked if you were the one wearing a red hoodie yesterday. Happy?" And back to the love part.

     Something about him just made me feel all warm inside, and I didn't care what anyone else thought about me liking him or talking to him. The only bad part was, I liked the name Elijah better than Austin, but I suppose I could get over that.

     My next four classes were pretty boring, ecspecially College English with Mrs. Pollock. She was a funny teacher, she was just old-fashioned with her way of teaching. Usually I fall asleep in her class but today I was wide awake, waiting for Austin to text me. The bell rang, and I walked with Brittany to meet her boyfriend in the hallway.

     As we were waiting for Matt (weirdly, Matt was my first kiss, about a year ago, and now he's dating one of my best friends.) to come, who do you think was standing on the opposite side of the hall from us? Austin! I know I sound like a twelve year old who just met Justin Bieber, but hey, how can I not get excited to see a hot guy? I was listening to Brittany talk about her and Matt's anniversary coming up, but I was also looking at Austin. He was talking to one of his buddies, and every few seconds he would look up and smile at me. I returned the gesture right as Matt walked up.

     Next was history and we literally never do anything in there, so Bailey and I decided to skip and walk the halls. We went to our lockers on the bottom floor first to put our stuff away. As we were walking by the bandroom, I noticed someone behind us. I turned my head slightly to the left and saw it was Austin. Bailey obviously didn't notice, so I started to walk slower so maybe he would catch up with us.

     He came up beside Bailey. "Hey, Sage this is Austin!" she said, stopping us and pointing me towards him like there were twenty other guys in this hallway, all with long hair and a lip ring.

     "Oh, hey what's up?" was all I could muster up in my shy little body.

     "Just skipping science, you?" Oh my god, his smile is infectious. I saw it earlier, but when he's right in front of you, you can feel it like a hot knife cutting through butter. I wanted to make out with him right then, but that would be weird...right?

     "Skipping history." Bailey cut in when I didn't answer right away.

     "Oh cool, hey I'm suppose to meet Eli Detty on the third floor, but I'll text you Sage, okay?" He acted like he didn't want to leave and kept smiling at me. Damn, it took all my strength to look way before I did something I regreted.

     "Okay, cool." were what I thought were my parting words, until Bailey started talking.

     "Hey, before you guys go, you should shake hands!" We both looked at her like she was stupid, then back at one another.

     "Come on, I'll go first." She lifted her arm and extended it at him. He looked confused, but shook it anyway. Then he turned to me and flashed his smile and extended his arm towards me. Akwardly, I shook his hand.

     Holy shit, his hands are soft! I thought to myself. They felt like baby bottoms! Would it be weird to tell him that? Probably. I just let it go and we went our seperate ways.

So that was my first chapter! Hope you all liked it, comment and tell me please! I don't know if I'm going to continue it or not so please tell me if I should! This is non-fiction, actually. I used real names, except for mine. For the most part everything in this story happens in real life, but I'll throw in some exciting stuff, just for you! Also, I am in need of a cover for this story! If anyone is good at making covers, I would love it if you made me one, I'll dedicate a chapter to you! Something to do with people from two different worlds, that fit together perfectly, blah blah blah. Kinda like when Jackie and Hyde were together in That 70s Show. But anyways, comment and tell me, even if it is just one word! I would very much appriciate it!