Thug love

Arrival

Amelia- I don't know girl, i wanna go but you know how Cisco gets.
Jenny- Mira chica f*ck what he gatta say he ain't yo daddy. Not even yo brother so go! You know it's ganna be hella lit.
           Always my best friend to get me into trouble. I met Jenny in the 2 grade when she put glue in a girl named Isabelle's hair, I covered for her and ever since then . We've been each other ROD.
Amelia- alright I'll go but not for too long I got a algebra test I gatta take manana n if I fail, it ain't Cisco who's fana b the only one after mah skin.
Jenny- alright I'll pick you up in an hour, be ready hoe!
          She hung up n I through my iPhone 6s on my bed and took a deep breath. Although Cisco isn't my brother or father he's like one, he's the one that takes care of me since my mom is sick and can't provide for me it's always Cisco that pays the bills and buys me what I need, ever since my grandma died. I snapped out of it, no way was I dwelling in that past again.
       I went into my closet and decided to wear my white crop top, faded light jeans, and white vans. Nothing to fancy hair just let loose I wasn't trying to get too crunk. It was about to be 8 when Jenny called me
Jenny- alright I'm outside.
            And like that's she hung up and I grabbed my phone and keys and went downstairs for the door. Luckily Cisco was at the trap so I wouldn't have to explain myself to him. Not like he would listen to what I would have to say, that much was clear for what happened after the party. I got into the passenger side and Jenny drove off towards Summit St.. I lived in Roseville in Illinois 40 or so minutes away from Chicago. The party that we were going to was about 15 or so minutes away. In Los Angeles de La muerte's territory. They were a rival gang from my cousin and if he were to find out I was out there, for a party. He'd kill me!
        We had just pulled up to the house and parked when Cisco messaged me
Cisco- A were u at?
Amelia- I went out with Jenny to a family get together at her uncles house. B home by 11 or 12. Don't stay up
Cisco- wtf des de Cuando te mandas sola?!! U know how I feel about u leaving without permission. Wait till u get home. Stay safe.
     There was no need for a reply he was tuff but he showed he cared.  We walked up into the house with C-Kan flowing through the speakers and already I was getting drinks pushed into my face. Then I saw him Rosmar, the guy I had been dating for 7 months now, he saw me and smiled walking towards me and Jenny.
Jenny- imma catch you later girl, cuz I don't wanna be nobodies third wheeler. You have my number. C'ya baby.
    With that she walked away and Rosmar walked up to me
Rosmar- hola mamacita como te fue hoy en la escuela?
Amelia- good I just missed you baby, why didn't you go today?
Rosmar- you know how it is baby I had business to take care of.
    He had a slight irritated sound in his voice, which got me mad.
Amelia- uh huh sure business like the job of f*cking som Pendeja I'm sure.
    I said rolling my eyes
Rosmar- damn Mimi why you always gatta assume the worst about me? It's always this way with you! And you know what I'm getting real sick of this bullshit! Your the one probably cheating. Hoe I heard how you and Steve were getting down at the school dance.
Amelia- f*uck you! You know damn well that's bullshit! I'm not an easy hoe! I'm not no god damn Mariana!
Rosmar- come on ma drop it, it ain't worth this. Come up stairs with me.
      I followed him up some stairs and we walked into a empty bedroom. Right away I got a bad feeling in my stomach. It's been 2 months now that Rosmar has been wanting to have sex, and I love him but I'm still a virgin and that's a very sensitive thing for me.
Rosmar- baby you know how much I missed you today?
   He started kissing on my neck
Amelia- I don't know tell me
     I started giggling. He cupped my ass and pulled me towards the bed I got on top of him and started grinding on  him. He took of my shirt and I took off his. I was getting too caught up in the moment I needed to stop.
Amelia- wait no Rosmar ya para le. Not today.
     He groaned and pushed me off of him.
Rosmar- dammit Amelia! You always fucking do this to me!! Always give me a fucking hard on and get me going then you pull this stupid shit! Well it's getting old! Your a fucking lil tease and I don't like it!
     I knew what he was saying was true but I couldn't help it, I wanted him but I was scared.
Amelia- I know and I'm sorry baby.
     I started tearing up and say on the bed. I didn't know why I was tearing up usually I didn't show people my weakness it felt stupid.
Rosmar- ay vas como una putita llorando ya para le estupida!
      I looked up in shock I can't believe he just said that to me. I got up and ran downstairs to find Jenny, I wasn't about to stay here and be treated like shit any more. I spent 20 minutes trying to call and text Jenny I couldn't find her. But someone found me.
Rosmar- listen baby, honey, bonbon I'm sorry I'm sorry
    Great. He only calls me Bon Bon when he's been drinking.
Amelia- listen I don't care. Have you seen Jenny?
Rosmar- yea yea she's upstairs come on I'll show you.
      I followed him upstairs to a different room.
Amelia- Jenny isn't here, she must have left.
Rosmar- oops well stay with me.
    He started kissing me and groping me trying to get under my shirt.
Amelia- ya Rosmar. Stop!! I'm not ready.
Rosmar- listen puta ya estoy cansado de Tus pinches juegos hoy Es tiempo q me des lo que Es mio.
      He pushed me into the bed and got on top of me, I started kicking and screaming but he wouldn't Listen. He hit me across the face and punched my jaw. I was getting dazed. My pants.my bra. My underwear. I screamed, but nobody heard. Then a push and a pain. I was in pain down there, I started crying. This couldn't be happening this was the guy I loved this,this wasn't, this couldn't be. But it was the tears kept coming and so was he. Finally he stopped the thrusting stopped but not my tears. He got off and zipped up then left. I lied there for a while longer trying to figure out what happened. Finally it hit me. It wasn't sex, it wasn't making love shit it wasn't even fucking! It was rape. My boyfriend had just raped me.