Hold Me in Your Beating Heart (Larry Stylinson Au)

Chapter 9~ Sweet child of mine

I cried while writing this chapter and I hope you guys like it. The pic is what they're supposed to look like, Harry a bit older but that works. Please don't forget to vote and comment, I will really appreciate it in this chapter. Enjoy! :)

His own child was a stranger to him, someone he didn't know at all.

"No, Louis don't cry. I know it can be very overwhelming but please don't cry." Zayn begged almost in tears too.

"How c- can I not cry, Zayn." Louis sobbed, "How would you feel if the last time you saw your baby she was a month old and when you're finally going to see her again she's a nine year old who probably doesn't love you. How can he if I was never there for him."

"He lov-" Zayn grabbed his other hand.

"I was never there for him! I never gave him all the love he needed growing up, I never got to wake up in the middle of the night to feed him, change his diaper and much less comfort him." Louis interrupted him feeling a hole in his chest, one he didn't know if it would ever be filled.

"When I was pregnant all I wanted was to have him in my arms and love him and I only got to do that for a month and even then I was too sick to take care of him. Harry had to do it all by himself and I missed everything. His first word, his first steps...his birthdays. I wasn't there to take him to school on his very first day and tell him to have fun and that everything was going to be okay. I never got to pack him his lunch and write him little notes. Everything I wanted to do, I never got to do it." Louis let it all out and by the time he was done, he and Zayn were in tears, "I still have the C-Section scar..."

"I'm going to be honest with you, Louis." Zayn firmly said, "Your son loves you, we all made sure to tell him about you, we never stopped telling him how much you love him and how you didn't mean to leave him. Life was cruel...your dad was a cruel man and he has paid for his mistakes even if it was too late. But all you need to know and be so sure of is that your son loves you, he always asks us to tell him stories about you. Hell, he'll listen to the same ones over and over again as if it was the first time no matter how many times he has heard them before."

"I love him so much and I'm scared he won't love me when he meets me." Louis looked at Zayn with wide frightened eyes full of tears that it broke Zayn's heart, "I'm scared he'll be ashamed of me. Look at me, I look like I could be his older brother...physically I look nine years older than him. I am nine years older than him."

"He loves you and that won't change anytime soon. I promise you that." Zayn hugged him feeling Louis nodding on his right shoulder.

"Enough of me and more about you." Louis said out of nowhere in a more cheerful tone confusing Zayn who decided not to say anything as he pulled back, "Harry told me you and Liam got married three years ago, you better bring video and pictures next time you come visit me."

"It wasn't that big of a wedding, just the people who matters to me. Liam was too busy with his career and so was I. Same with Niall and Harry, Harry was too busy with Blake and his career plus research." Zayn chuckled.

"Is Niall not married yet?" Louis asked.

"Nah, he's the man no woman can hold down. He and his then girlfriend broke up a few years later after a pregnancy scare. Niall thinks he's too young to settle down and have kids, so as long as he's happy then we're happy." Zayn shrugged his shoulders reaching for the water when Louis licked his lips and after he was done drinking, he put the cup back on the table.