"Be proud of your pain, for you are stronger than those with none"
"They say that I can't last a day in the real world. I say you wouldn't survive one night in mine."
"The problem with me is that I can be so hurt with what you've just said but I will still look at you and smile"
Sometimes I get so emotional I find it difficult to function. It becomes overwhelming. I can't handle the flurry of emotion I experience. But other times feeing anything but annoyance seems to be a challenge. I just sit their apathetic to my life and surroundings and in a way that is as overwhelming as the emotions but seems calmer.
"For a moment I was getting better
For a moment I was feeling good
. For a moment I wanted to live
. For a moment I had hope again
And in a moment, I lost it all. Again"
"I'm still alive, but I'm barely breathing"
"Other times, I look at my scars and see something else: a girl who was trying to cope with something horrible that she should never have had to live through at all. My scars show pain and suffering, but they also show my will to survive. They're part of my history that'll always be there."
"I'm at war with my own mind, and I'm losing."
"I want to fill my lungs with smoke. I don't deserve oxygen."
The day that I break down will be the day that I will be truly free.
Headaches from crying fucking suck and they hurt like hell.
"It all started with me not wanting to get out of bed. That's when I could tell I was getting bad again. I force myself to get up and go fake a smile. But when I'm alone, I'm so obviously broken. I fall into my sadness and it engulfs me. I know I'm smiling, but goddamn just look into my eyes. Does this look like happiness? No one asks what I want. No one asks if I'm ok. I cry myself to sleep but I don't tell anyone because who the hell would understand? Everything is crashing down around me and it feels like the walls of my heart are cracking, and oh God, I wish my veins were too. No one asks, and no one will understand how truly sad I am until I'm not breathing. And if you don't notice the fake smile, the forced laugh I give, or the way I don't care about the things I used to love, don't you dare stand at my grave and cry."
"Cutting is not for attention,it's a way to deal with sadness, stress, anger. We do not want you to see our cuts, we try to hide them so you don't think differently of us. We say it was our cat or we don't know how we got them. We feel lonely, hated, unloved by the people around us, even our family. We say we are OK but deep down we know it is a lie. Some of us try to stop but it is hard because, it is a way we know how to cope with everything. We try and promise people things but we break it because it is hard."
"Sometimes you climb
out of bed in the morning
and you think,
I'm not going to make it,
but you laugh inside —
remembering all the
times you've felt that way."
"My only goal in life right now is to be genuinely happy."
"Depression is when you see your life falling part but you don't have the power to put it back together"
"Anxiety is when you feel like and see your life falling apart and you freak out but you are helpless and cant do anything bout it"
"2015 was shit, the heartbreaks, the lonliness, the tears, the events, everyone leaving, everyone hating me, the scars, the insecurity. And years after years it's getting worse"
"School for 12 years, college for 4 years, then you work until you die. Cool."
"It kind of scares me- looking back in it all. Before I made a promise to lay down my weapons, I was cruel and relentless. I drove blades into my skin with the goal to cause suffering, but not to kill. I would stop just before it became unsafe, so that an opportunity to torture myself would be able to arise again. I starved my bleeding body and denied it of all it needed to thrive. I broke myself down piece by piece, but I always left just enough so that I could do it all over again."
