I need you... (CaKe) (kendall and cara)

Part One

So hey guys here I am (again). This is a story that I first wrote for Emily and Alison for pretty little liars (you can still find it on fanfiction.net) But now I wanted to change it into a CaKe story
So let me know what you guys think!

Cara Pov

I felt his hands running over my body like they were spiders.

His breath smelled like onions and whiskey like always. My eyes filled with tears when it entered my nose.

I had cried a lot already... Because of the pain, shame, disappointment, confusion and the feeling of my heart bursting in pieces.

The pain is bearable and wont last, same for the shame and disappointment and I knew fast enough what was happening.

But I knew that my heart will never heal.

With my whole body covered in sweat, I woke up and sighed.

I was dreaming again...

I am having these nightmares for 5 months already. I drank from my bottle of water on my bedside table and looked in the mirror.

I looked tired.

Really tired.

If you look in my blue eyes you could see that I was broken and that the happiness was gone.

I still was pretty, but broken.

When I have those nightmares I feel like shit. I started crying but I was alone again. I felt so goddamn helpless and pathetic.

So I did the only thing that could help me...

I slowly took my razor and started cutting my wrist. My eyes closed and I didn't know that I was slowly covering my whole arm in cuts. I opened my eyes and sighed.

'Cara,...You're such I mess' I told myself.

I started cutting myself 4 months ago. Nobody knew so it's fine. I looked at my arm covered with old and knew scars and I took some band-aid and lay down. Thinking about the first time,...

The first time Dave raped me...

It was the day I turned 15 and I had a lovely day with the girls. We went to the movies and I sat with Kendall and Gigi. In the break, Gigi and Hailey switched seats so we al had the chance to sit with the birthday girl.

Me.

But I'm happy whenever I can sit with Kendall. We were all laughing and talking and I felt so happy.

After a fun day I went home. There was my step-dad Dave, lying on the couch

I still remember it so well. I guess I will never forget what happened that night. It was dark and you could smell the alcohol... I tried to move gentle and slowly to the stairs but I must have touched an empty vodka bottle and suddenly the lights were on.

There he stood, his shirt full with stains and he hadn't shaved his beard in weeks.

'Our pretty princess is arrived. ' He said and I felt so bad. Even the smallest child could see that he was drunk. My mother left for 10 days to Paris and I was so sad because I wanted to come with her but she said that it was impossible because I wasn't

'old enough'

to make such a big trip. Maybe this is the way things are supposed to be, but it doesn't feel right.

So Dave made a mess.

The whole house looked like it wasn't cleaned for years and he promised to god that if we didn't clean the house on the day my mom returned he would break our necks.

But on that day, on that moment, I couldn't care less about the house.

I noticed how he tried to look strong.

If you wondered, he failed.

Then he faltered towards me. I was so stupid to back of immediately. But I guess I did it because my instincts alarmed and knew that there was something wrong.

Of course I knew because he wasn't afraid to slap me when he is drunk. He does that from time to time but my mom didn't know...

How ironic.

One time he slapped me in the face and I ended up having a blue eye and I guess I was lucky because lying about a blue eye was easy cake...

When he saw that I backed off, he pulled me down the stairs. With his fists he slapped me everywhere he could.

20 minutes long.

On every spot.

'You ungrateful child! You still need my gift and you are going to take it either you want it or not.'

I was half unconscious but I still realized what was happening. Dave pulled me on the couch and tore all my clothes of.

Then he raped me...

He raped me.

I cried so much and it felt like hell and whenever I cried he hit me. No, he slapped me whenever I made a sound. Then he would kick me with his knee or scratch or slap anywhere he could.

But mostly my ribs.

When he was 'done' he fell asleep on the couch snoring loudly.

I crept to the bathroom while the tears were streaming down my face and the pain wasn't bearable.

Once in the bathroom, I started vomiting. I wanted to wash myself and sleep but I needed to get out of that house so I took a short and a sweater and crawled outside the house.

When I stood on my porch I was shaking and I headed to the house I knew I was save.

So there I was.

In front of the house of my sweet crush Kendall. Yeah you heard me well, she is my crush.

I was shaking like hell when I slowly pushed on her doorbell. I knew her mom wasn't home either because she was some kind of manager and traveled a lot.
So after a couple of minutes a stunning brown haired beauty opened the front door. She looked annoyed and tired but when she saw me she looked shocked.

'Cara? Oh my god what happened?!'

I fainted. Well I guess not fainted but I just ran out of energy and I just heard her panic and trying to catch me from falling.

She just hold me.

We were laying on the ground in her corridor. I was on top of her with my face turned to the ground and she was caressing my back while she softly started crying.

You must have listened really good to hear it but I felt my shoulder becoming wet because of her tears. She tried really careful to carry me to her fancy room bridal style.

When I touched the bed, my eyes were closing and the last thing I saw was Kendall pulling my sweater of and looking so, so sad at my body.

Then I slept.

I slept for a long time.

So this was the first chapter. The universe it happens is when they were younger and all went to the same school and that Cara her parents are difforced