Lifes Not Worth It

A New Life

"Mom I'm going to be late I have to leave now!" I ran toward the door with toast in my mouth slinging my back pack on. I quickly put on my shoes and ran to the bus. It was a new day in a new town. I was excited but I was nervous too. The bus pulled up as I ran towards kids standing at the bus stop. I ran onto the bus and sat in an empty spot. I looked out the window and slipped on my ear buds. I started listening to my favorite band Peirce The Veil, Caraphernilia. I banged my head and pretended to play the drums and guitar and sung quietly. I noticed a boy who was looking at me. We locked eyes for a moment and I smiled at him. He looked away quickly. I shrugged and looked back out the window.

The bus stopped at the school now. As I walked off the bus I shivered looking at my new school. Central Middle School. It would be my first year here starting in 7th grade. Unlike everyone else I wouldn't know how to work lockers or anything because I've been homeschooled pretty much my whole life til now. I saw girls pass in groups and boys checking them out. All the girls wore short shorts and tank tops. That just made me look weird. I was wearing pants and a sweatshirt with a T-shirt underneath me. I got to my locker and I had to look at my locker combination. It must've been a thousand times before I got it open. I took off my sweat shirt and pulled down wolf shirt. I stared and my shirt for a little while as the bell rang.

I got into my first period class and sat in the back next to a girl hewing gum. She had brown hair with sparkles in her hair. She looked like someone who didn't give two craps about anything. "Hello and welcome today students. Today we have a new student joining us for he rest of the year." Everyone looked towards me. I sank a little down in my seat. "State your name and stand up." Demanded the teacher. I sat up and put my hands in front of me and looked at the ground. "My name is Catherian." I said "but you can call me Cat." Everyone started whispering and laughed at me. "OK thank you Cat. You may sit now." I sat down quickly and felt my eyes water a little. I was sensitive and I've never had any real friends unless you count my german shepherd Kiko or my older sister Jayln.

All my other periods were the same I stated my name and people laughed. In 3rd period some gave me a note saying " that's a stupid name you should be called 'flea bag' it suits you more." It was lunch now and I kept looking at that note. I got lunch and sat at a table all alone. I noticed that boy from he bus across the table at the end. I got up and sat down across from him "hey, I'm Catherine but you can call me Cat." I said. "Rade" he said and quickly got up. His face was red. He went outside quickly without looking back. I ate my food alone and kept looking at that note. "Hey, what's your name? Cat right?" I looked up a blonde girls with curly long hair came bear me with a group of five or six other girls. "Hey" I smiled a little "look no one likes a new a girl ok? So stay out of our way or else. Got it?" She snapped at me. I felt I needed to stand up for myself so I said "or else what?" As she was walking away she stopped suddenly and turned slowly "or else what? Or else you'll get your ass kicked!" She said she grabbed my milk carton and dumped it on my head. "Clean your self like the filthy animal you are!" She said and stomped off.

The rest of the day was crappy and everyone just laughed at me. I didn't eat that night as I got home. I told my mom about the day and she held me and told me people were just jealous of me. But I didn't feel like I was being jealous over. She also said that it would probably stop after a while. I sat in my room and cried that night.