Speak Ronnie




A little story I wrote

Everyone goes in search for something good in their life. Some will find it and some have to loose something special to realise what that thing they were looking for is










If someone else was telling you about my life, they'll tell you it was perfect. I had the perfect wardrobe, shoes, house and family. They'll tell you that I always had a smile on my face and I was the nicest person ever. But they don't know what was underneath that perfect smile..... No one did.




My name is Ronnie ( short for Veronica) I'm 15 and I have no idea what the word happy means anymore. When I was little I did, everything was perfect then, my family was so warm and welcoming, my parents would always play with me and I had the best relationship with my sister Brooke (19). What happened, everything has changed, I don't even remember my sisters beautiful face anymore, neither does Gina and Mark. I guess when my older brother Luke passed away 5 years ago, my family died with him. My parents don't talk to each other anymore, they both blame themselves for the loss of Luke, even though they didn't have anything to do with it, my sister... well God only knows where she has been for the last 5 years of her life and then there's me whose so confused of why I'm still smiling. I lost so much trust and closeness with my parents in the last couple of years that I started calling them by their first name which is so sad cause I do love them so much, but I guess they just don't love me back. Yesterday morning I tried to talk to Gina about some acting classes that I wanted to take with my friends, and that's when I realised that those 10 years of my life were all just an act. I went up to her and asked her calmly

" good morning Gina, so I don't know if you remember this but you know how I've always wanted to become an actress" then I saw her putting her coffee down on the kitchen bench while she opened her eyes and stared at my shaking hands , then I continued

" well I was just wondering if I could please take some drama classes with my friends? "

As a mum would normally do, I thought she was gonna agree...... But she's not like the other mums so her response was




"Fronnie, or whatever your name is, I told you that I don't want you to ask me to take you places ok, so go to your room, shut the door and don't talk to me ever again about silly things like this" I kept staring at her while she was yelling at me hoping that she would eventually start laughing and tell me that she would do anything to make me happy , but she never did, she was serious. Confused as though why she wouldn't let me live my dream, I still turned around and did as she ordered, but while I was going up the stairs , I overheard her saying softly " what the hell was I thinking getting pregnant at 19, biggest regret of my life". Since I was 10 I thought I was the best thing that ever happened to her, but for the fiftieth time, she proved me wrong.

The day after, as usual , I woke up made myself breakfast, lunch and cleaned my room, then I walked to my bus stop to catch the bus to school. It was just an ordinary school day, then during my English class , the principal came in my class with a sad look on his face, he immediately looked at me and said to the teacher with a low voice " can I please see Veronica ?" I stood up leaving all my books on my desk when all of a sudden he says " take your books with you, you won't come back to class". That's when I realised that he had bad news, while I was walking towards him I was thinking of all the bad things he could of said like maybe Brooke didn't show up to school or that I was failing science.. Then he stared talking.

" I'm so sorry Veronica" after that sentence I rolled my eyes up to him and he continued

" your parents, well they were i a car accident, your sister already heard the news so she is already home"




I looked up at him like if I couldn't understand what he was saying, that's cause I didn't want to understand what he was saying. I know that I never had a good relationship with them but that doesn't mean they can just leave me just like that. I saw his eyes getting watery while he leaned forward for I hug but before he could reach me I started

" That's not true, I know they were arguing last night about money and...... but......no...." I was hoping for it to be a joke, I really was.

" No, this isn't possible" I continued

"I was just starting to talk to Gina again and starting to call her 'mum' again, why would she leave me"




Mr taylor didn't know what to say at this stage, he had tears coming down his pale face and he was wiping them off thinking that I couldn't notice them. Just when I thought my life couldn't get any worse the only person I loved left without saying goodbye ,and I was pretty sure she wouldn't come back for me.




Mr taylor decided to take me home himself just to make sure I would be safe. On the way home all I could think about was why I wasn't crying, why wasn't I angry at myself, why were the only things I could think about how free I was now that I had no one to stop me from being free from doing whatever I loved to do. Being positive was the only thing I was good at, with a life like mine you kind of get used to bad news so I learned to take the good side out of all the bad things coming to me, it's helped me so far. While I was looking out the car window, I decided to write to Gina so I got a bit of paper, a pen and wrote down..




" I don't think that you even imagined how much pain I would have been in, once you had gone, because if you had, you wouldn't of left" then I held it out of the window and just let it go, maybe one day, that message will reach her....

When I got home, I got out of the car slowly, staring at the house and wondered how it would feel to open the front door and hear..... Silence....... I would normally hear Gina yelling at Brooke to get out of her room even though Brooke was never actually there. I felt so bad because instead of being sad, I felt free and it's still hard to admit but I was happy, and I couldn't help it. So I started walking toward the house, opened the front door and the first thing I saw was my gorgeous sister Brooke. When I walked in I stood I front of the door just staring at Brooke waiting for her to turn around. I was so excited to see her cause it had been 5 years since I last spoke to her.

Then she finally turned around and I gave her a smile of release, she walked towards me smiling , placed my school bag on the floor, started holding my hand then we started walking up the stairs and then she said while looking down at me




" So what are your plans for tomorrow? Shopping spree or Disney world?"

I looked at her confused then I fell to her giving her a tight, warm hug. I will never forget those 10 seconds of my life. She stared at me and started talking about what she did this last 5 years, we just started our own conversation and got carried away with it, then we found out how much we actually missed each other and just wanted to be free again, then she asked me

" What's your biggest wish" , I looked at her and answered

" To be free " , she pointed out her window to a beautiful crystal blue sky and said

" We are"







The End







By Alice Marini