Three Guys,one Girl....HELP??

Chapter 4

Dear Diary, 

Now lets forget about one of them for now and lets focus on the two that are in the same grade as I am. Is it weird to be crushing on these two at the same time? I find it very unhealthy.

 But let me tell you about today..................so with one of the guys....we ahh attend the same church. I was looking at him today and realised that he was cute at time and ugly at time and today he was looking very cute any ways we made eye contact and we looked at each other for about a good 5-10 solid seconds. I wanted to blush but then I'm black so that wouldn't have shown.  

Pssshh anyways............

After church we had a youth group executive body meeting where he arrived late and then we were sitting side by side with our heads on the table very close(you know sometimes I think he likes me) we talked and had our little fun then I teased him as usual but I think he is the one I like best since he is the one I've known and liked the longest. I think he likes me since he can put up with my crazy behavior which is very annoying(been told that many times by many people) and he sends me a DM on instagram with a pick he took with me and my friend "who needs a gf when I have friends like you".

And my friend says says that she thinks he needs to be in a relationship with the way he held on to us like we were together(u understand what i mean-like he is with one of us).  

But there was this one time I took up the courage and told him that I like him and his response was"me? you caa(cant) like me.....

But am I taking these the wrong way thinking they might be signals as he is shy and afraid to say something or am I making a big deal over nothing.

I'm confused.

Help me to choose.

Please?

Bye diary see you whenever I choose to come again.