Chris Colfer as Trevor Wilkinson
Trevor POV.
I remember that day as If it was yesterday. How I was so excited to get home. In school one of my teachers was explaining Tonys that acceptance is expected from the people who love us. It made me think it motivated, enough to make a decision.
I can still remember walking up the stairs as I admired the intricate designs we had carved into our front door frame. I remember the way the cool, glass door knob, felt in my hands as I turned it and walked in. I remember the sweet smell of homemade chocolate chip cookies mom always made. The smell that reminded me of all the times I came home feeling down and my mom sat me down and told me it's all going to work out for me as long as I have a little faith.
I remember walking in the kitchen after putting my bag down and seeing my mom singing in the kitchen. "oh mr. Sandman bring me a dream" I remember my dream. I remembered asking mom to talk. I remember her smile and the twinkle in her eyes as she gave me a hug and a kiss and said "sure". I remember asking her if she would accept any decision I choose in my life. I remember her answer cause it was the one i wanted to hear. "Yes son anything you choose I accept".
I Remember saying what if it's something I cant choose would you still accept it."Son if you can't choose it it's because it was meant to be".
Her answer is what gave me the courage to say those two fatal words. Words that changed my life forever, words I some times regret. I'M GAY.
"Do you to go get some snacks" Stacy asked for the tenth time breaking me out of my daydream, as she busied her self looking for an outfit.
While she looked through her closet I looked out the window again day dreaming this time of the guy who could sweep me off my feet. The bad boy with the good heart. A person can dream right.
"huh. Don't you have some." I asked.
"Yeah I forgot. Hey does this outfit look nice on me."
She is crazy everything she wears looks good she doesn't own a bad outfit.
"don't be silly of course you look nice"
I mean duh. I thought to myself.
"Trevor I am really nervous."
She said
"well that wasn't obvious at all" I wise cracked.
"oh I'm serious.Carl is a college student what does he see in me."
Dang I hate when she gets in this kinda mood. Think it doesn't happen alot? Think again.
This is like the millionth time today that she has done this. Only one thing to do. Sing!
"My mama told me when I was young we are all born superstars"
Looking at me like I'm crazy stacy finished my line.
"She rolled my hair and put my lipstick on in the glass of her boudior."
I look at Stacy and said.
" There's nothing wrong with loving who you are cause he made you special,Babe."
She looked at me and thats when I saw a tear.
Oh my gosh. What do i do how did I make her cry I didn't mean to.
" oh I'm so sorry Stacy was there something I said to make you cry"
She nodded her head no and gave me a really big hug.
I was flabbergasted.
"what's the hug for hunny?" I asked.
" it's for being the best friend a girl can want."
See why she wants to do that this heffah knows I wil cry.
"aww ok so I'm leaving cause I will not cry in front of you"
She knows I won't anyways. Lol (mind talk)
" wait you cant leave aren't you going to stay for my party?"
I don't think that's a good idea i really down want to be around a house full of drunk people who end up trying to have sex wherever they fall. I also don't want to be the object of people's jokes I know alot of jocks will be there and college kids and I don't have tolerance for harassment.
"I'm sorry Hun I can't go my mom said by the time she comes from work I better have the house clean. I want to do it cause It's the first time she spoke to me in almost 4 months."
That was a lie my mom hasn't spoken to me in almost 8 months. Why you ask? Because I'm gay. Don't get me wrong my dad does or at least when she isn't looking. She feels as if I'm an abomination but she is really one. I wouldn't hate my son because he is something he couldn't control. She should be blaming god. I'll live though because I have faith in a better future.
" I understand hun but the last party I had 4 months ago she made you go babysit your cousin just to stop talking to you again"
I didn't enjoy lying to stacy but I just couldnt come. I mean I would love to but I can't. I wish she knew that I couldn't do it. I couldn't be played I didn't want to be ridiculed. Shame? No. Just a steady need for peace and not animosity.
" I know but it's ok I think she will come around soon."
I lied yet again. One day I will tell her the truth but not today.
"it's ok I understand but if you want to come just let me know"
I hated how her eyes glaze when she is sad. How her checks reddened and she look so lost.
"don't worry Hun if I'm done early I will come and help you clean up."
That should cheer her up.
"yay then I can tell you about my date with Carl." she replied giddily.
"great so I will see you later."
I said then I left her room. As I headed down stairs I thought of all the people who let me down. All of the people who promised to be by my side. I thought of the faith I will always have.
