You Never Knew Me

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That was one amazing moment. I can't believe, still that I have fans that love me as much as I love music! Today I got up late. I mean, SERIOUSLY late. It's 2:00 in the afternoon and I only just got up. I met a guy yesterday after I went on the show. He has dark brown hair that lays across his face, it is one of his features that stands out. This guy's eyebrows are ALWAYS on fleek. He's either growing a beard, or it just looks like it because he keeps shaving it off. Anyways, at the time he was wearing a white blazer with a black, gray and white striped tie and he was smiling the whole time.

We exchanged phone numbers, and he said to call him anytime. So I called him straight away when I got home.

This guy is Joe Jonas and he is my boyfriend.

*THREE MONTHS LATER* (with an accent)

That's it. It's all over. Through a 27-second phone call. No more celebrity boyfriend. Good job Taylor, it's all over the news right now. None of the press know how it happened yet, but they're so clever, they'll figure it out sooner or later.

Joe Jonas, my ex boyfriend. I've never imagined that coming out of my mouth... I'm down in the dumps right now. I start sniffing... No, this guy is not worth crying over... He probably never even loved me. But the thought of that makes me shiver. That would be horrible.

Since I am a strong country girl, I decided to write a song (or three) about our relationship. They're called 'Forever And Always', 'Last Kiss' and 'Holy Ground'. I've only released 'Forever And Always', but not the other two. 'Holy Ground' is about the good points in me and his relationship, as the others are kind of a mix of sad and mad.

Here are the lyrics to Holy Ground, tell me what you think!
"Holy Ground"
I was reminiscing just the other day,
While having coffee all alone and Lord, it took me away.
Back to a first-glance feeling on New York Time.
Back when you fit in my poems like a perfect rhyme.
Took off faster than a green light "Go".
Yeah, you skipped the conversation when you already know.
I left a note on the door with a joke we'd made,
And that was the first day.

And darling, it was good never looking down.
And right there where we stood was holy ground.

Spinning like a girl in a brand new dress,
We had this big wide city all to ourselves.
We blocked the noise with the sound of 'I need you',
And for the first time I had something to lose,
And I guess we fell apart in the usual way.
And the story's got dust on every page,
But sometimes I wonder how you think about it now.
And I see your face in every crowd.

Cause darling, it was good never looking down.
And right there where we stood was holy ground.

Tonight I'm gonna dance for all that we've been through.
But I don't wanna dance if I'm not dancing with you.
Tonight I'm gonna dance like you were in this room.
But I don't wanna dance if I'm not dancing with you,

It was good never looking down.
And right there where we stood was holy ground.

Tonight I'm gonna dance for all that we've been through.
But I don't wanna dance if I'm not dancing with you.
Tonight I'm gonna dance like you were in this room.
But I don't wanna dance if I'm not dancing with you.

I really like this song. It took me ages. Literally, I stayed up some nights trying to finish it off, now I feel accomplished. This song is perfect. I actually started crying when I wrote it though, thinking about everything good about us. Joe and Taylor. I loved him. But I'm sure I'll find others that care about me even more. That would be nice.

Lyrics to 'Forever And Always'

"Forever & Always"

Once upon a time,
I believe it was a Tuesday when I caught your eye
And we caught onto something
I hold onto the night,
You looked me in the eye
And told me you loved me

Were you just kidding?
'Cause it seems to me, this thing is breaking down
We almost never speak
I don't feel welcome anymore
Baby, what happened, please tell me?
'Cause one second it was perfect, now you're half way out the door

And I stare at the phone,
He still hasn't called
And then you feel so low you can't feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when he said forever and always
Oh, and it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'Cause I was there when you said forever and always

Was I out of line?
Did I say something way too honest?
Made you run and hide
Like a scared little boy?
I looked into your eyes
Thought I knew you for a minute, now I'm not so sure

So here's to everything
Coming down to nothing
Here's to silence
That cuts me to the core
Where is this going?
Thought I knew for a minute, but I don't anymore

And I stare at the phone,
He still hasn't called
And then you feel so low, you can't feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when he said forever and always
Oh, and it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'Cause I was there when you said forever and always

You didn't mean it, baby,
I don't think so

Back up, baby, back up
Did you forget everything?
Back up, baby, back up
Did you forget everything?

'Cause it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'Cause I was there when you said forever and always

Oh, I stare at the phone,
He still hasn't called
And then you feel so low
You can't feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when we said forever and always

And it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'Cause I was there when you said forever and always

You didn't mean it, baby,
You said forever and always... yeah

This song shows my emotions when he broke up with me. It made me SO mad writing this song. But its worth it. Because this song will show him. He'll feel SO guilty!

It'll take me forever to write down the lyrics to Last Kiss, so I think this should be it for now. I hate Joe now. And I think I've found another guy I really like. Maybe I even love him?