Unknown; Juwany Roman

Chapter 3

I was speaking to the person I loved most. The person who made my life full of sunshine. The person who I would look forward to watching once I came home from school.

"Hey Geo" I waved smiling.
"Hey babe!" He smiled brightly.
"Why didn't you say it was youuu! I was actually quite scarred" I laughed and so did he.
"Wanted to surprise you" he winked.
My stomach hurt from the different feelings inside.

He's so sexy I would just lick him up and down!
Shut up Fayth! You can't say that!
"Can't believe you're coming to the Uk! I hope that I can get tickets other wise I'm screwed" I frowned thinking about if I didn't get any.
"Awh don't worry! I'm sure you will. I actually love you're account on Instagram! It's so cool and you're edits are amazing"
"Thank you very much. How's mumma flamingo?" I asked.
"She's very good. Wanna say hi?" He laughed at our silliness.
I nodded I response. He took me downstairs into the kitchen where she was cooking something.

"mom say hi to Fayth!" She looked up and smiled.
"Hello, how are you?" She asked kindly.
"Good thank you, how about you?" It felt so heart warming talking to Juwany's mom.
We made small talk before Geo went back upstairs again.
"She really likes you!" He beamed out.

I blushed from embarrassment. I'm not really the one for nice talking.
As I said before, I've never really came in contact with boys before so I'm new to this all.
"I have to go it's like 9 at night and I need to do some stuff" I said feeling upset that I won't talk to him constantly because of time zones.

"Okay cutie! Have a lovely night babe" he waved before ending.
My heart was beating a thousand miles an hour.
I laid on my bed, debating whether I should tell Ruth and D...
I decided against as they will freak out a lot.
I decided to complete some homework before having a hot bath then getting in bed.
I scrolled through social media replying to some of my 'fans' comments and stuff.
I began to get tired so I turned my phone off after tweeting a 'goodnight' and let the sleep take over me.

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The next day I had woken up at around 8:30am as I was an early bird. 

I decided to go home today as I wanted a day by myself, just watching movies in sweat pants and eating pizza.
I said my goodbyes to the girls, then walked down the road home.

As I got in, I went straight to my plain designed room and got changed.
I wore some Nike sweat pants and a Nike sports bra with a huge sweater over it.
I then headed downstairs and ordered some pizza.

I then turned on Netflix and clicked Shameless. I was looking forward to watching it, as the last few episodes looked really good.

I sat down, snuggled into my couch when I got a notification from Younow.
Geo had gone live.
It must be like around 11 in Florida right now as its 3 o'clock in England.

I clicked the notification and viewed his broadcast.
I was entertained watching him, he was always so lively and jokey even when he's upset.
I've never seen him down in a broadcast before and I'm surprised if he is in one.

"I'm gonna be guesting people, so add yourself to the line and I'll pick some of y'all!" He smiled.
He scrolled through the guest list and his eyes widened.

A call came through to my screen. Omg be called me!
I accepted and his face lit up even more brightly than before.
"HEY Fayth! How are you cutie?" He asked.
"Very well thank you! How about you?"
"Very good. What time is it in England right now?" He asked curiously.

He was seriously so cute!
"3 o'clock" he nodded in agreement.
We were chatting for a while and I began to feel really bad for other fans as I've been on here for 30 minutes.

I began to read the comments. I spotted a few which hurt my feelings.
'Bitch better stay away from my man!'
'Whore!'
'Do something else with your life slut! Geo hates you!"
It began to get to my mind and bring back the memories from when I was younger.

"Uh Geo, do you mind if I leave? I don't feel too good. I'll see you soon okay..." I smiled lightly.
"Okay, bye Fayth"

His smiled faded away as I ended. He wasn't his normal self.
I could see his concentrated face from reading the comments.
"Okay guys, I'm going to end this broadcast here. I'll be on later today, bye"
With that he ended the call.

All the guilt started to build up. I know I shouldn't be feeling guilty but I feel bad for talking to him for so long and no other people had the chance.
The comments sprung back to mind.
I got up, headed to my room and took out a notebook.
I don't feel like harming is right, like I'm scarred to experience it. So instead I grab a notebook.

As I headed downstairs with it, the doorbell rang.
I paid the delivery guy then sat back on the couch.
Tears began to brim at my eyes as I wrote down random things.
I wouldn't say it's a diary as such but it looks like one.

I ate my pizza slowly. The room went dark, so I looked outside and it was filled with dark clouds.
Within seconds heavy rain began to fall.
This is when I'm calmest, when it rains.

I got a message.
Juwany💕👑: Are you okay babe? I read all the comments... Is that what's upp? Xxx
F: Yeah, can I FaceTime you?xxx
Juwany💕👑: sure xxx

The call came through within seconds.
I didn't care what I looked like to be honest.

"Tell me everything" he looked sad himself.
"Well, the comments brought back memories from when I was younger. When I was at the age of 11 and upwards, I was bullied everyday and I didn't bother telling my parents. Otherwise I would of left that school and moves city. I loved London so much even though the bad weather. I was hurt mentally and physically. I didn't harm as I was too scarred to. I got a notebook and wrote down everything. Every little detail. Then it all stopped after I learned how to box, then I had a fight. I was suspended for 3 weeks. Then the comments on younow made me feel worthless again. To make it even better it's raining right now..."
He was looking straight into the camera with a tear streaming down his face.

I never thought I could effect someone some much to the point where they cry.

"I'm sorry Fayth" he looked at his lap.
"Why are you upset? You're never upset"
He took a long sigh before he began.

"I'm never happy anymore. I miss when I broadcasted and I only had around 40 people. I dislike how people treat me differently because I'm 'famous' or whatever. I get stopped in the streets all the time and I'm upset how I can't live a normal life. I love making people smile, but how am I supposed to make people smile when I'm not happy? I'm just really down. I never show this side because i don't want to feel weak or people think a different perspective of me. I haven't even told my mom this. But when I found you, Fayth, I'm beginning to be the joyful Geo again" he gave a small reassuring smile.
His smile made me smile.
I just sat there blushing madly.

We spoke until I heard the door close downstairs.
"Geo, I'm gonna go now. Thank you for today... Talk later"
I waved before pressing end.

I hurried downstairs to greet my parents.

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This was such a long chapter! I just wanted it to be as detailed as possible 💕 Please comment and vote, much appreciated!